Jasmine

I just recently got out a horrid relationship about 4 months ago and have decided to start talking to ppl( But nothing too serious). i met a guy on a dating site and begin to talk to him after a while me and him started to text then later we started to talk on the phone alot ( and i mean alot! everyday) usually when i talk to a guy like , me and him do, i get annoyed but i never get tired of him and i am missing and thinking about him as soon as when are off the phone . He makes me laugh ,makes me happy , he's caring , but doesnt get too mushy ! (thank GOD!) .We can joke all the time and noone get serious . i feel as though i can talk to him about anything !!! he gives me just a rush like nver before and everyone notices.But most of all we have a understanding that we are just friends and not aiming for nothing else (because of my recent abusive history) and when we finally met . i could feel butterflies in my stomach. But thats when the problem came !!!! Everytime he would touch me kiss or hug me , I would pull away even though i loved it so much , and didnt want to stop .it feels so right but idk if im ready to handle it . He says that he likes me and is not sure where it will go. He says that he could us getting emotionally attached .(which scared me ) Then he took the cake when he told me he wanted to delete his online page because he couldnt see himself talking to any other girl . ( omg i could have turned blue and dropped dead!!!) i loved the feeling of knowing that he felt the same way about me that i felt about him , but its scary that idk if im ready . What shud i do !!!!!?????!!!! someone help!! I realli like him and i dont wanna lose him over something stupid.... and also for a little more information ( that might not matter ) i am a black girl from the country and he is a white guy from cali... Mi first time with a vanilla baby (go figure!). Could it just be that its something new to me ?HELP!