Sayuri

I wasnt a confident person before. Who was scared to go outside alone, couldn't mix with people and just liked to be with my parents. But i realized i wouldn't grow up if i stay the way i am.

So in March i decided to have a challenge leaving home and study in Japan, in uni. I started to live in the uni dorm with 100 of International students. During my stay i had to do all my house choirs by myself and go shopping by myself. Funny thing started to happen was i was changing. I was able to go shopping alone and go dinner with friends. Back at my home town i couldn't do all that. So its a bit scary.

After i cam back home i found out people where staring at me. I dont know if its because i changed or something else. But After i got my confidence i wasnt afraid to walk past guys and even go into shops without my parents.

Does confidence really make people look different?

Do you think that i got my confidence is a good thing?

I am a bit scared and nervous. Because i am always getting stared. I didn't have that kind of thing when i didn't have my confidence back then.

I was bullied in primary school, just because for repeating first grade, But that was because i had a learning disability. I had to repeat for a reason. But from myself i didn't think it was a wrong thing.

But i lost my bright, shining SMILE for 5 years. Can you imagine me not able to smile for that long??? I bet you cant

sayuriwilliamsyaginuma you can see my Instagram account to see what i look like

Now by seeing my smiling face photos, can you imagine a girl who wasnt able to smile for this long and now here she is so completely different. I didnt think i was going to able to SMILE like this again which i am able to do now after all the terrible bullying.

My SMILE is my life and everything.

I really wanted to die back then because i wasnt able to smile and was messed up and was hurt. But look at me now.

Mostly Guys always come sitting next to me or opposite me. I actually burst out smiling and laughing a lot, which might be rare these days. But its true mostly everyday at uni guys come near me. But they dont come talking to me.

Is my smile and laughing the reason guys come near me??? Do they like girls like me or just feel comfortable being near a bright person???? Should i stop being bright???

Do guys prefer girls like me or naughty and gossipy type?

Anyway, i get nervous when i am in this situation. What can i do? I usually stare at my iphone and watch something funny for distraction. Is that good to do?

My lucky number is 25 and lucky color is Blue.

Every time i look at the clock anywhere, at home or in the streets. Its always 25 and when i go to shops and when i look up and see the price its 25.

My lucky color is my favorite color blue. When i was in primary and secondary school i was in blue team.

Now how about you guys out there? Whats your lucky color and number?

I was bullied in primary school, just because for repeating first grade, But that was because i had a learning disability. I had to repeat for a reason. But from myself i didn't think it was a wrong thing.

But i lost my bright, shining SMILE for 5 years. Can you imagine me not able to smile for that long??? I bet you cant

sayuriwilliamsyaginuma you can see my Instagram account to see what i look like

Now by seeing my smiling face photos, can you imagine a girl who wasnt able to smile for this long and now here she is so completely different. I didnt think i was going to able to SMILE like this again which i am able to do now after all the terrible bullying.

My SMILE is my life and everything.

I really wanted to die back then because i wasnt able to smile and was messed up and was hurt. But look at me now.

I was bullied in primary school, just because for repeating first grade, But that was because i had a learning disability. I had to repeat for a reason. But from myself i didn't think it was a wrong thing.

But i lost my bright, shining SMILE for 5 years. Can you imagine me not able to smile for that long??? I bet you cant

sayuriwilliamsyaginuma you can see my Instagram account to see what i look like

Now by seeing my smiling face photos, can you imagine a girl who wasnt able to smile for this long and now here she is so completely different. I didnt think i was going to able to SMILE like this again which i am able to do now after all the terrible bullying.

My SMILE is my life and everything.

I really wanted to die back then because i wasnt able to smile and was messed up and was hurt. But look at me now.

Guys always start to fiddle with there hair when i come across with them. Its literally happening everyday and everywhere. Plus guys start shaking there legs, come sitting next to me. This is literally happening all the time. Plus i have been dealing with this kind of thing since high school.

I get scared and embarrassed, because i get stared a lot. I do try to ignore. But sometimes i cant . So its a bit stressful.

What do you think is the clue to the situation i am in? How can i live life getting these signs from guys?

One thing i will tell you, i smile and laugh a lot. So do you think thats the clue or something else????

Is this completely normal thing to go through?

Please help

I smile and laugh a lot for no reason. Thats just the way i am and i found out any aged guys come near me, look back and keep looking at me.

I am currently studying in Japan at uni and even at uni, guys come sitting next to me or stop near me and start talking to each other. I dont think of myself beautiful and gorgeous. But i can say i am a kind, caring and bright person.

sayuriwilliamsyaginuma is my instagram . So that you can see what i look like.

I feel uncomfortable in the situation that i am in. How can i cope being in this situation. Its a bit shy feeling and uncomfortable.

Please help

Mostly Guys always come sitting next to me or opposite me. I actually burst out smiling and laughing a lot, which might be rare these days. But its true mostly everyday at uni guys come near me. But they dont come talking to me.

Is my smile and laughing the reason guys come near me??? Do they like girls like me or just feel comfortable being near a bright person???? Should i stop being bright???

Do guys prefer girls like me or naughty and gossipy type?

Anyway, i get nervous when i am in this situation. What can i do? I usually stare at my iphone and watch something funny for distraction. Is that good to do?

I had two guys confess to me they like me. But i didn't feel the same way. So i told them sorry and accidentally lied to one of them i have a boyfriend. Then they got upset and hurt.

Then guess what they started to do? They started to be nasty and text me nasty and gross messages. Real sexual ones. So i got scared . But i had to let them know i didn't feel the same way.

The annoying thing is both of them are in my class. They keep checking me out and sit near me and look back and stuff. Which is really annoying.

I sometimes bump into one of them in uni and they started to ignore me or show me a guilty face. When this happens i kind of get trapped and feel did i do something wrong? Which i haven't.

How can i forget what happened and did i do the right thing by telling them i dont feel the same way?????

When ever a guy is near me or sitting next to me, they start to shake there legs or cant stop shaking.

What does this sign mean????

When i was in Yr 7 at high school, me and this boy who was in Yr 9 was in some kind of state. I don't know if it was mutual secret crush or not a crush.

Me and this boy were next to each other, facing back to back. Then we turn around at the same time, then that was when we got attracted to each other. We were too shy and he only smiled around me and when he was with his friends, he never smiled.

Even we were both shy, when we first met eye to eye, i ran away from him. Because he wouldn't stop staring. Then on another day he was back at the same spot where we met and he was staring at me again, non stop. So i ran away again then he got his friend and he put the recycle bin on top of his mate in front of me. I think he wanted my attention, what do you think?

Now he always used to be near the school gate, after school finished and i always come past the gate past him. But i ignored him because i was shy. He was there couple of times for a while. But when i kept ignoring he stopped waiting at the gate.

One thing, he never stopped smiling when he was near me. So what do you think? Do you think it was a crush?

Any clue or reason you can figure out?

I get alot of people say that i am cute and beautiful. But i cant see myself like that. But so many people tell me this.Even online and outside world.

So do you think its true if so many people tell me this????

How can i believe it?????

Is it completely normal to have this attitude????

I get alot of people say that i am cute and beautiful. But i cant see myself like that. But so many people tell me this.Even online and outside world.

So do you think its true if so many people tell me this????

How can i believe it?????

Is it completely normal to have this attitude????

Every time i go and sit next to a guy or if a guy sits next to me. They always start to shake there legs and they wont stop. Its making me nervous and a bit annoying.

Any clue why guys are doing this????

It actually happens always and everyday where ever i go.

How can i cope being in this situation???

Please help?????

When ever a guy is near me or sitting next to me, they start to shake there legs or cant stop shaking.

What does this sign mean????