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I am a 17 year old male.I know that uptil now I have definately been hetro-sexual. I am an otaku (anime nerd) and one of my favourite genres are : romance.

Recently I accidentally stumbled upon a couple of romantic, slice of Life, Shounen-Ai (Boys Love) anime and I didn't know about the content and I could say that I enjoyed them slightly. And I started looking into further anime of this content and recently thought I may be turning Bi-sexual and I don't really know what to do. I so far haven't been involved in any relationships yet.

So I was wondering if I could ask for some general "what the hell to do now" advice? I would ask a few of my friends but I'm not comfortable yet, as they are 100% hetro they know that, I know that, it would just be a little awkward and I don't really know how they would react and I'm not sure whether I'm actually turing Bi or not.

Apologies for what I write below it may be a little innappropriate-----------

I do ma**urbate to straight porn, I still have not yet seen g*y pornography yet.

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So I would appreciate any "proper" and sensible advice please, I'm kind of confused.

Theres this girl I like. Her name is called Hannah, she's a really friendly person and etc. I recently added her as a friend and I noticed that she had a guy listed as "In a relationship". And I felt a bit sad.

She just comes to my college to study Chemistry only. And now at first my friends said I liked her, when I refused to them, now I know that they were right and etc. I try talking to her about work and etc. And before winter holidays, in our final Chemistry Lesson, out teacher made us hold hands in a circle (to demonstrate polymerisation) and on my right, I was holding Hannah's hand and on my left I was holding a friend of mine hand. I personally do not feel comfortable with holding other men's hands and I was letting go of both sides of hands. And as I released hannah's hands her hands were almost resting on my hands as if she tried to hold it but a 10 secs later she let go.

And also another problem with me is, I am not the kind of person that can smile or laugh when I intend to. I just cant smile, cause if I try to, I look like a peadophile unfortunately. So you obviously always see me with a serious face almost 24/7. And hannah is a very joyful person, so I almost have no chance with her. She is almost too good for me, but I still would be happy if you guys can give me some suggestions in how to ask her out and etc.

Also FYI, I have never went out with a girl, Im a 16 year old guy. And if possible how do I ask her if she is single or not.

Many thanks to you all in advance.