Psychotic

I'm not asking if it's possible - of course it's possible, I'm asking if you'd be able to do it.

I'm in a 34B and I'm extremely insecure about my breasts. I come from a family of women who have very large breasts and for some reason, I didn't inherit that trait. I hate how small they are. I hate it especially during intimacy because it just barely fills the man's hand.

You can be anonymous if it makes you comfortable.

There's a guy who likes me very much. I don't really like him in that way, but whatever. He constantly texts me and blows my phone up, asking me to go out with him.

Tonight, he texts me telling me he has a present for me, after I turned him down for going out. I asked him what the present was and he said roses. I said that was very sweet of him. An hour later, he texts me telling me to go outside. Now mind you, it was 1AM. I told him that this was a bit of a ridiculous hour to be going out. I'm 18 years old and still live with my mother, so she's very strict about late hours. He was persistent, so I just started ignoring him.

A half hour later, my brother calls and says that a weird car has been sitting in the driveway for a very long time. I peaked out the window and it was that guy's car. My mother asked him to move his car so my brother could get in the driveway and he proceeded to move his car and parked dead center in the middle of my street. I was angry and weirded out now. I went outside, maintaining a cool attitude, and got in his car. He grabbed me and hugged me and wouldn't let go. I pulled away, took the roses and thanked him, and he pulled me back in to hug me, putting his head on my shoulder. I giggled nervously and pulled away, so he started rubbing my back. I didn't know what to do or how to feel, so I thanked him and just got out of the car.

How should I feel about this? Is this creepy or is it just me?

I've had many night terrors throughout my life, but there was just one that shook me up more than anything. I was asleep when I had this nightmare about a woman who forced me to kill my mother and my grandmother. It felt so real. I thought I had actually done this and there was no going back. I awoke soon after in a flood of tears and I was screaming and I had this intense feeling of fear and dread, like something was terribly wrong. I couldn't shake this feeling. I can't even describe it. It felt evil, I guess. It was horrible. Do you know that feeling you get when you know something bad is about to happen? It's similar to that, but ten times worse and it would not fade. I cried for several minutes after that had taken place and I felt uneasy for the remainder of the night.

Or ever had sex with someone you barely knew? I know this is a personal question and if it makes you feel comfortable, you can be anonymous.

I know I am.

Was it awkward?