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This has been going on for years, since I was a kid. I'm 29 yrs old now. She's been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety and depression. She's probably been on every pysch drug invented since the eighties.

She's always taken more of her medication then she's prescribed or else taken other stuff like 20 Tylenol PM's in a day if she runs out of her meds for the month (which she often does). She landed herself in the hospital for taking too many pills and passing out. She's been to rehab almost 15 years ago and the doctor at hospital wanted her to go back, but she REFUSES. She's so adamant about not going back. She actually just got up, ripped out her IV's and left the hospital when they said that to her.

Additionally, she's totally unequipped to deal with real life. She can't handle money. She'll write checks when she knows she has nothing in the bank. She had a fast food job where she worked about 5 hours a week and they just fired her. She's 54 years old and has been living with my 92 yr old grandma who cooks for her and does her laundry. In the past year, she's stolen my gram's credit cards, checks, and pawned her jewelry. She's called the police on my, again, 92 yr old grandma twice. The most recent time was because gram wouldn't give her a check she got from her retirement because my mother will spend any money she has instantly on **** she has no use for. I swear if she won a million dollars, she'd blow it in a month and have nothing to show for it. She lies like it's her job. My gram has paid off her debts more than once. They argue constantly, though. When my gram dies, my mom has no where to go.

I have tried to reason, tried to beg, tried to scream, tried to calmly speak to her about getting help with her problems, but anytime we have this conversation she gets immediately defensive. No one can tell her anything. Not doctors, not family, not friends.

I feel like the meds make her so numb she can't feel any empathy to others. She feels plenty of self pity though. She's so manipulative, she'll go up to a stranger and give them a sob story and then ask for money to buy cigarettes. At the same time, she's completely naive. She'd be the person giving money to the sob story as well!

It's a tangled mess of a situation and I'm at my wits end about it. Every time my mom does some new horrible thing, my gram calls me and then they both get on the phone and scream at each other, no one listens to me, and nothing gets resolved. I am mostly a calm person, but I do have some anxiety and depression as well and this is just getting to be too much for me to deal with. I feel completely hopeless about our future because she's almost certainly going to screw up again once someone isn't babysitting her 24/7. And the thought of having to be the babysitter makes me want to die. There is no one in this world who can frustrate and enrage me more than her. I scare myself when we fight by how angry I get. If she lived with me, I guarantee she'd steal from me and we'd argue everyday. If she lived with me, I'd have to break up with my bf of 13 years just to spare him that. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

I'd ideally like to find somewhere for her to live where people can monitor her medication and finances. I have two jobs, I can't be there all the time. But no group home will take her without her first getting help for her drug problem. Which she WILL NOT do. So what do I do? Do I cut her off and let her roam the streets homeless after my gram dies? Do I let her ruin my life by letting her come and live with me and stealing and having to watch her every second of the day? I'm not well off financially, if she got a hold of my credit card or check book, i'd be in a big hole. She's burned every bridge. Anyone who's ever tried to help her has eventually given up because she'll ask for money all the time, for rides, lie to get these things. Takes no responsibility for her actions. It's always someone's fault. She uses things against me that I did when I was a teenager, she'll bring them up in arguments that have nothing to do with them. She'll say "I'm YOUR mother, you can't tell me what to do". I'm almost 30 years old and lets face it, she hasn't been "my mother" for any of those years. I feel like I'm the mother of a drug addict teenager.

Do you know people like this? What can you do for them? She needs somewhere to live and someone to watch her. I feel like I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown after dealing with this for 15 years. I just can't anymore.

I can't remember the name of this show, but i remember that these kids had to run through this crazy maze type thing and there were these 4 gatekeepers that had weird costumes that i think asked you questions that you had to answer before you could go on. It was really cool looking and it's been driving me crazy, i cannot remember for the life of me.