I_rule

I was involved with this girl for more than 2 year. I have been doing everything I can to show my faith in the relationship, to care for her and her future. But throughout the whole time, she kept staying in her own world of thinking. She has accused me of being with her b/c I want to have sex with her, accused me of breaking apart of her family, she accused of selfish, superficial, etc. I swallowed all those and stayed with her. It is the time that I was considering her future and her career success, and she told me I was not worth, not once, but twice on my face thar drove me to make a decision of leaving. She even said that I pretend to be nice & my true goal was just breaking up with her.

Then after a while, she said she realized what she did & wanted forgiveness from me. And she said I would always be her good friend. My thought is, she has done enough damage on my life, I can never pretend nothing has happened. When I tried to explain my thoughts to her. She thought I wanted to get back to her and said "I can get back with u b/c the economy is so bad." nothing made sense to me from her. It is not that I don't want to forgive but I am scared if she is going to do the same thing to me again once I agree to be friend with her and establish normal contact. Deep in my thought, she isnot a bad person, but should I risk my self-eestem & self-respect again to give her a chance? And she seems to really understand she was wrong. I am just confused.