Christopher

Hi I'm 14 year old boy, and I have noticed how time that I don't get along very well with kids my AGE. Most of the time I notice I have more friends who are much younger like 7,8,9,10,11, and 12

I don't know what it's, but it seems to be much easier to make friends. I guess because you don't have to worry about them judging you.

I talk to this one girl and she is ten. I like her to be honest. She is funny, out going, and cute. And plus she likes me ! I told her she has to like someone her AGE group, even though I like her. People find it wrong if I were to have a relationship with her. But, I will never find a girl that likes me :( no girls like me because I'm Black, Ugly, I have a flat head, very low eyebrows, and not too good at conversations. But with her and the other young kids, I get along very well !

Having friends in my age group wouldn't problem if there were racist parents, and picky people. I hate this cause I know I can't date her or anything, and I know I won't find a girl like her again! It makes me mad that I'm too old for her and my AGE group are just too stupid to see cool friendships and too judgemental.

Should I just kill myself ? Or what ? I have no friends besides the young kids. I don't know what to do.