sarah v

i did a hair show for redken on sunday and they asked me what color i wanted my hair and i told them like a platinum, not all over, but that platinumy- silvery-ashy blonde...well they said they had the perfect color, but it turns out they didn't have it available for the show and my hair ended up a yellow blonde.

i hate it!

and i model so it will ruin my portfolio if i have any pics taken with this color...is it ok to have it done again within the next week??????

ok i feel vain for wanting it, but i'm 25 and have been modeling for a while now and i feel like my nose ruins almost every picture. some photographers have fixed it in photo shop, but i feel like it's keeping me from being more successful. my mother and sister think i should, my father is offended (because it's HIS family nose!) and my boyfriend thinks it will ruin my face, i "look fine" he says...

is it bad for me to want this? i mean, i've been doing ok in the industry already...it's just always something that has bothered me.

I feel like everything sucks, my job, my relationships (with bf, friends, etc.) finances...it all just sucks...