this is how you left me

The other night i was feeling really depressed so i went to my dads medicine cupboard and took a bunch of random pills. A day later, i can't stop shaking. What do i do? I don't no what the pills were.

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up going with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. He was so upset and angry that he pinned me up against the wall by my throat, bit my face and screamed at me calling me every name under the sun. We didn't speak for a while, he text me once saying i was a mistake and that he just used me for sex. Anyway, it's been a while and he drunkenly phoned me apologizing and now he's asking me to meet up with him, what should i do? Give him another chance or walkaway forever?

Forget everything you’ve ever done or said.

People say I’m stupid.

But they don’t know you like I know you, no one does.

They don’t know what it felt like to be needed,

What it felt like to be loved.

For just one second, I want that feeling back

For just one moment I want to be back on track.

I’ve watched you hurt, lie and cheat.

I’ve seen you manipulate, backstab and defeat.

But every single time I see your face, I wish you were mine.

On every shooting star and every bell that I hear chime.

People say you’ll never change, and I know this is true.

But the only person I ever seem to think of is you.

For just one minute, can you come back?

For just an hour, let’s get back on track.

I’ll never forget the day you let your guard down.

Forgot where you were and who you were talking around.

You spoke to me, like you loved me still,

When that moment ended, I remember the kill.

If it can happen once, it can happen again.

Maybe in a dream, I won’t be in pain.

For just a lifetime, please come back.

Forever, I’ll be running on this track.

Ok so a long story short, my best friend admitted he was in love with me. I'm the type of girl that goes for the bad boys or has had bad relationships so i have never experienced being on the other end of wanting someone and them not wanting you back, it's usually me. It started out with a kiss, a couple nights in cuddling and then when i was drunk we had sex and i said 'i love you' to him, to keep him mine i suppose. When i see him talking to other girls, i cause arguments. I don't want him but don't want anyone else to have him either. Anyway, i met up with my ex boyfriend the other day and he found out and i felt so bad, i'd never seen him so hurt before. He actually looked defeated in life so i have stopped speaking to him even though he said he was willing to forgive me, i don't like him like that but i want my friend back, what to do?

Ok so a long story short, my best friend admitted he was in love with me. I'm the type of girl that goes for the bad boys or has had bad relationships so i have never experienced being on the other end of wanting someone and them not wanting you back, it's usually me. It started out with a kiss, a couple nights in cuddling and then when i was drunk we had sex and i said 'i love you' to him, to keep him mine i suppose. When i see him talking to other girls, i cause arguments. I don't want him but don't want anyone else to have him either. Anyway, i met up with my ex boyfriend the other day and he found out and i felt so bad, i'd never seen him so hurt before. He actually looked defeated in life so i have stopped speaking to him even though he said he was willing to forgive me, i don't like him like that but i want my friend back, what to do?

Ok so a long story short, my best friend admitted he was in love with me. I'm the type of girl that goes for the bad boys or has had bad relationships so i have never experienced being on the other end of wanting someone and them not wanting you back, it's usually me. It started out with a kiss, a couple nights in cuddling and then when i was drunk we had sex and i said 'i love you' to him, to keep him mine i suppose. When i see him talking to other girls, i cause arguments. I don't want him but don't want anyone else to have him either. Anyway, i met up with my ex boyfriend the other day and he found out and i felt so bad, i'd never seen him so hurt before. He actually looked defeated in life so i have stopped speaking to him even though he said he was willing to forgive me, i don't like him like that but i want my friend back, what to do?

Ok so a long story short, my best friend admitted he was in love with me. I'm the type of girl that goes for the bad boys or has had bad relationships so i have never experienced being on the other end of wanting someone and them not wanting you back, it's usually me. It started out with a kiss, a couple nights in cuddling and then when i was drunk we had sex and i said 'i love you' to him, to keep him mine i suppose. When i see him talking to other girls, i cause arguments. I don't want him but don't want anyone else to have him either. Anyway, i met up with my ex boyfriend the other day and he found out and i felt so bad, i'd never seen him so hurt before. He actually looked defeated in life so i have stopped speaking to him even though he said he was willing to forgive me, i don't like him like that but i want my friend back, what to do?

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. He was so upset and angry that he pinned me up against the wall by my throat, bit my face and screamed at me calling me every name under the sun. We hadn't spoke for a month but not a day went by when i didn't think about him and then just yesterday night he text me saying 'hey stranger, hows it going?' I text back immediately and he asked me to come see him today because he 'missed me'. He then also dropped in that he was 'sexually frustrated' and 'what if we slept together? would i mind?'... I'm so confused, i miss him so much but is he just using me?

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. He was so upset and angry that he pinned me up against the wall by my throat, bit my face and screamed at me calling me every name under the sun. We hadn't spoke for a month but not a day went by when i didn't think about him and then just yesterday night he text me saying 'hey stranger, hows it going?' I text back immediately and he asked me to come see him today because he 'missed me'. He then also dropped in that he was 'sexually frustrated' and 'what if we slept together? would i mind?'... I'm so confused, i miss him so much but is he just using me?

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. He was so upset and angry that he pinned me up against the wall by my throat, bit my face and screamed at me calling me every name under the sun. We hadn't spoke for a month but not a day went by when i didn't think about him and then just yesterday night he text me saying 'hey stranger, hows it going?' I text back immediately and he asked me to come see him today because he 'missed me'. He then also dropped in that he was 'sexually frustrated' and 'what if we slept together? would i mind?'... I'm so confused, i miss him so much but is he just using me?

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. He was so upset and angry that he pinned me up against the wall by my throat, bit my face and screamed at me calling me every name under the sun. We hadn't spoke for a month but not a day went by when i didn't think about him and then just yesterday night he text me saying 'hey stranger, hows it going?' I text back immediately and he asked me to come see him today because he 'missed me'. He then also dropped in that he was 'sexually frustrated' and 'what if we slept together? would i mind?'... I'm so confused, i miss him so much but is he just using me?

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. He was so upset and angry that he pinned me up against the wall by my throat, bit my face and screamed at me calling me every name under the sun. We hadn't spoke for a month but not a day went by when i didn't think about him and then just yesterday night he text me saying 'hey stranger, hows it going?'... i text back immediately and he asked if he could get the clothes he'd left at my house and asked if i fancied a night in watching a DVD. I said yes and went to bed so happy but woke up this morning to a text saying he was going out tonight instead... I'm confused, think he still thinks about me and has feelings for me. Any advice would be helpful.

I was on and off with this guy for almost 2 years. We're not really the relationship type but we we're crazy about each other! It all went wrong when we were out and although we'd never said we were going out or said we couldn't go with other people he kissed somebody in front of me and i was heartbroken. He later on told me he kissed her, knowing i was watching. I was furious, got drunk and ended up with his best friend. Regretfully. He was so upset when he found out, he even cried. We hadn't spoke for a month but not a day went by when i didn't think about him and then just yesterday night he text me saying 'hey stranger, hows it going?'... i text back immediately and he asked if he could get the clothes he'd left at my house and asked if i fancied a night in watching a DVD. I said yes and went to bed so happy but woke up this morning to a text saying he was going out tonight instead... I'm confused, think he still thinks about me and has feelings for me. Any advice would be helpful.

A suitcase, a weary smile and a deep long breath.

I counted the steps you took as you left.

Tried to fight back the tears but they came,

Crying myself a river, to drown some of the pain.

I watched from the window as you drove away in your car,

You didn’t just abandon us but you took my shining star.

You used to read me a story and tuck me up in bed,

You’d smile and laugh and then kiss me on the head.

You tell me to look to the stars and you named one after me,

You said it represented us and everything I wanted to be,

I know exactly which one it is, I used to see it every night.

You didn’t just leave us; you took away the star light.

Everywhere I go and everything I do,

There’s a hole in my heart, left by you.

I don’t see the stars, no matter how much they shine.

For they took everything that was mine.

All the memory’s torn out of a book,

Left scattered on the floor and yet from them you took

My star; the only thing that sent me to sleep at night.

The only thing that made my life bright.

The nights they drag on and the days wear thin,

Everything that’s done and said, I take it on the chin.

I wake up in the evening, these same for walls again,

You wake up and for a moment you forget the pain.

Did the sun come up or did it rain? I guess I’ll never know,

I can’t get past this; I’ve suffered the hardest blow.

Daddy was my hero; he always knew exactly what to say,

But when he left, he took the stars away.

'And I'm callous and I'm cruel, to everyone but you.'

The song is wake me up - Ed Sheeran and the line is 'I should ink my skin with your name

And take my passport out again

And just replace it'

it's so beautiful, i get the tattoo part but what does the bit about the passport mean?

I'm 18. I've left school and i currently volunteer at a nursery a couple of days a week. Although i like it, i don't think i want to do it as a career. I'm useless at everything. Like honestly, i have no common sense or initiative and my life is just stuck in an absolute rut. Although i like the nursery a lot, i'm never happy anymore, i cry myself to sleep most nights and have suicidal thoughts most days, i just don't really see the point in being alive anymore. I mean, my mum and dad have another son and daughter so it's not as if it'll be a big impact on their life if i am gone. I don't want to grow up, i want to go back to school, even though i failed all my subjects because i am the worlds most useless human being, what do i do?

The shining star

A suitcase, a weary smile and a deep long breath.

I counted the steps you took as you left.

Tried to fight back the tears but they came,

Crying myself a river, to drown some of the pain.

I watched from the window as you drove away in your car,

You didn’t just abandon us but you took my shining star.

You used to read me a story and tuck me up in bed,

You’d smile and laugh and then kiss me on the head.

You tell me to look to the stars and you named one after me,

You said it represented us and everything I wanted to be,

I know exactly which one it is, I used to see it every night.

You didn’t just leave us; you took away the star light.

Everywhere I go and everything I do,

There’s a hole in my heart, left by you.

I don’t see the stars, no matter how much they shine.

For they took everything that was mine.

All the memory’s torn out of a book,

Left scattered on the floor and yet from them you took

My star; the only thing that sent me to sleep at night.

The only thing that made my life bright.

The nights they drag on and the days wear thin,

Everything that’s done and said, I take it on the chin.

I wake up in the evening, these same for walls again,

You wake up and for a moment you forget the pain.

Did the sun come up or did it rain? I guess I’ll never know,

I can’t get past this; I’ve suffered the hardest blow.

Daddy was my hero; he always knew exactly what to say,

But when he left, he took the stars away.

Ive been to the clinic and my tests have came back negative for chlamydia or gonorrhea but still i have about an egg cup full of discharge on a daily basis. It is really thick and really gets me down, how do i solve this problem?