Lil'BloodredRidin'Hood

Please don't say "It's not good to bottle things up, dearie!" I want to know WHY.

Please and thank you!

I have to read and annotate Grapes of Wrath for my English class. I read the first chapter, and it wasn't too bad really, but if the entire book drawls on with too many words saying something simple, I might drive myself insane. I'm not trying to sound like an ignorant little teenager, but I've read more interesting classics.

Could anyone recommend ways to get intrigued by it so I WANT to read? Or at least so I have motivation that isn't related to the class.

Sorry if this is a sucky question. And I do sound like an ignorant teenager >.<

Please and thank you!

I try to make everyone happy. I try to cheer people up. If one of my friends is sad about something that is completely out of my control, I will try about anything and everything to cheer them up. And then when I, of course, can't, it makes me really depressed and I feel like a failure. I know I should stop trying to make everyone happy, but how?

It's almost like borderline anorexia, I'm an extremely picky eater in that most foods I find disgusting, and just don't want to eat. I'll cook almost any type of food, I just won't eat it. I usually only have one or two meals a day (definitely just one when I was in school) and it's usually really small, I can usually go a day without eating, I'm trying to get better and eat more, I just don't want to, I get sad sometimes when I eat, and then food tastes horrid. Sometimes I even won't eat just because it's in front of people, my friends.

So, anyone else with this little problem? And what IS this little problem?

Just a few questions on the subject

1. Define. Please. Not some webmd definition, if at all possible, from experience

2. Why do they happen? Like, what emotions or things wrong with the mind create them?

3. How many mental breakdowns, in, let's say six months, is consider 'normal' or 'safe and sane'?

4. Self-help for them? Literally, self, no talking to friends or having them help calm you down.

I think that's it. Please and thank you! ^_^

Metal is kinda broad, so more along the lines of prog, power, melodeath, thrash...that's still kinda broad, but I'm open-minded.

Basically songs that make you feel like you can take on the world, no matter what is getting at you. Any suggestions welcomed ^_^

Please and thank you!

A psychiatrist has six teenagers as patients. One is his son. (Long story, don't question any of this please, fiction). And then the teenagers kill themselves (he's a terrible psychiatrist). And he feels guilty and has a mental breakdown. Any In Flames songs that would fit?

And then a 'soft' metal song about child abuse. By soft, I mean no screaming, such as Children of Bodom. Growling is fine. Thrash is fine. Just no screaming or anything very incomprehensible.

Anyone know any songs? Please and thank you.

I just can't find them or figure out where they'd be. Anyone have any ideas?

I feel as if I've read every good book in my library. I doubt it, but I can't find any that are to my liking. Part of it is probably because I don't know how to find books. ANYWAY, any suggestions? Here are the one's I like and are in the mood for along the same style

(in no particular order)

Catalyst by Laurie Halse Anderson

Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson

Twisted by Laurie Halse Anderson

Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher

Deadline by Chris Crutcher

Impulse by Ellen Hopkins (and her others, Impulse might be my favorite)

Heavy Metal and You by Christopher Krovatin

Venomous by Christopher Krovatin

I have severe anxiety (probably social phobia, for sure glossophobia) and my friends think I should get evaluated and put on medication. I know it's for the best and all, but what exactly would it be like?

Long story short, best friend + big brother = love in a very intense unhealthy relationship. And they betrayed and lied to me throughout it and ruined me. But I still love them both and want them to be happy. And less angry. At each other (both majorly jealous) and at me. Basically, how do you forgive someone when they've hurt you more than you could ever imagine, and continue to obliviously?

I wrote this for an English project about our different tones or whatever. It's all true, not exaggerated, I was just wondering if anyone understood it or felt the same way.

Here ya go...

I never liked speaking in front of my class. I’m not sure why, but the idea scares me to death. Sharing my ideas, my thoughts, with my peers? Makes my hands shake.

I’ll just look around the room at everyone, and wonder what they’re thinking of everything I’m saying. Good? Bad? What are they whispering about? Is it positive? Negative? What’s going on? What are they laughing about? Did I pronounce something wrong? Did I say the wrong thing? Does it sound like gibberish? Am I speaking gibberish? Do they even care?

I’m going to be sick. I’m shaking so much. My head hurts like hell. Why do teachers put you through this torture? Some kids like to speak in class. I. Do. Not. Just because I can put words on paper, doesn’t mean I can form the syllables, pronounce the words, e-nun-ci-ate, and know not to have a high voice at the end of every sentence, making it sound like a question? Why hasn’t anyone noticed? Why doesn’t the teacher notice I’m nearing a mental breakdown?

I can’t handle this. I’m going to faint. I’m going to burst into tears. I’m going to scream. I’m going to shut the hell up. Please shut me up. Let me go back to my silence. Don’t make me speak. Don’t make me talk.

Am I talking too fast? Of course I am. Can people understand me? Probably not. I hope not. My ideas probably suck. I can feel my little self-esteem slowly fading away. Or rapidly, seeing how fast I’m talking, how hard my heart’s beating, my uneven breath. I just want this all to stop, before I become a terrified, confused, emotionally unstable small child. Tell me to go to my seat, that I’ve been through enough pain and suffering, that I’ve done my work and now am rewarded with my lips being sewn shut.

Can my ears be covered too, so I don’t have to listen to my quaky voice? May I shield my eyes to not watch the humiliation? Spare me from knowing this sort of pain ever existed.

Much less felt it.

Damn this all! I’m sorry for excelling, I’m sorry for being creative, I’m sorry for letting my opinions out in the open, for everyone to see, but you don’t want to hear them! No one does! All confidence disappears as soon as I open my mouth! You’re ruining everything by forcing me to do this! Just leave me and my thoughts alone! I don’t want this attention; I don’t want the limelight! I want to go back to my seat, pass this stupid class, and not have to say the wrong thing! Just make me shut up!

Let me shut up.

I'm always feeling guilty about something. I feel bad for rambling, I feel bad for being sad, I feel immensely guilty when people I care about are upset, even when it isn't my fault! Why do I do this and can it possibly be stopped?

My brother's friend gave me everything by Anthrax, Death Angel, Dream Theater, Mastodon, Slayer and Testament. But it's all so overwhelming and I'm not sure what to listen to first for each band and which album to just skip over. Suggestions?

Four scenarios. One will do whatever it takes, medication, therapy, anything and all, to lessen his or her anxiety. The second does not want therapy. The third wants anything natural, preferably no pills. And the fourth doesn't want to go to the doctor at all, just home remedies. Treatment options for each?

I'm sure there are some out there, at least mentioning it. I think (I'm not even really sure yet) that I'm doing a project on justice and the death penalty, so I was just wondering if there were any musicians who shared their views on it through music.

Thanks in advance.

Just those tiny little secrets you keep hidden and don't tell a soul.

What it will be like after you die? Who will find your body? What if (hypothetically) you committed suicide? How would they be then? Who will you leave behind? What if you die in your sleep, and your lover wakes up to your cold body? Thoughts?