♥Dimiz♥

I think I have done terrible thing in my previous life, because this suffering wont stop it always comes around me, God I am tired I cant run anymore with all these I need to balance my life with so many hurdles family, career, payments and many more to come.First of all I feel bad about being the only child in the family. In my childhood I saw how sibling help and love each other where I didn’t get that affectionate. I cried every single night secretly.I love my parents lot they were the only thing that I can rely on. But sometimes when they busy with there own life I feel I was left alone. I didn’t have many friends in my life nobody was there for me when I was in trouble situation at school. But I used to have friend who was married as soon as she left school and she is spending luxurious life. Sometimes I used to tell her my problems but then again I thought why should I tell my issues to her she must be thinking what a woman I am who cannot deal with her own stuff, later on she also stop talking to me because she found new friends where she can go on easily. Sometimes I used to look at their facebook images and think how unlucky I am. Because I can see she is leading a beautiful life with her friends and family. I am not jealous of her.My husband is very care loving person but he is also struggling with hid debts and all. He is a hard worker but no results for him as well. Feels so sorry for him.Being a Buddhist I practice my religion well. I used to worship Buddha.

Hi Guys,

First of all Thank you so much for reading my problem.

I am Exhausted and Depressed now. I am Lady with a good job with a average salary and my husband also working for a good company with good salary level. We were planning to go abroad for my MBA but it was continuously failing. Whenever I take a step to achieve my dreams it fails with a Second. I don’t why it only happens to me I was so sad and I cannot focus on other work as it always comes in to my mind with a big sigh on my life.

But my target is to somehow continue my MBA in a foreign university but with all these financial issues and unwanted problems all the dreams are getting shattered. And I think my husband also doesn't bother about me but I don’t know that exactly. Because I feel like he is also fed up with our decisions which cannot be taken in to reality.

I always help poor and other people where I don’t get anything.

Please help at least with few words waiting for your advice.

I am going out with a guy for 2 years now he was asking for have sex with me during this month for me to prove the Love for him But i am So afraid and i have do all these stuff alone because i am the only child.

Please let me know what shall i do?

I even Beg For him by telling Please don't do this to me because i am still a Final year student.

But to be Honest i love him a lot and i dont want to leave him

Please let me know soon

he asked me to give my answer by tomorrow morning :(

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