J

My boyfriend and I have been arguing for 6 months. We've been together for two years. The last 6 months he has been treating me badly, going out drinking a lot and texting me nasty stuff trying to make me upset and jealous, he even told me he didn't love me and broke up with me and then after a week he said he wanted me back and I gave him another chance. He's hurt me a lot and I've cried and I've spent time and effort trying to make it work and he hasn't changed. I've felt myself hating him for the person he's become but although I knew I should leave I never did. Then all of a sudden we had an argument about two days ago and we both were mad and said we wanted to end it and when this has happened before I've usually regretted it and been upset but this time I've felt nothing. I've completely lost my feelings for him like that and I don't understand it at all. I'm glad because now I don't have to go through the pain of a breakup but I don't understand how this has happened. I thought when you love someone it was a chemical thing and it takes time to go away but I just feel relieved like I'd had enough and I'm free again. Anyone else ever experienced this or can explain it? Thanks!