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Really random question but I have a new cousin and that’s his name. I know it’s not my kid or anything and it doesn’t matter, but I just wanted to know what you guys think. I personally don’t care for it but maybe that’s just me.

I know this sounds horrible and it is, but I feel a strong resentment against my mom at times. See, she’s a sickly person and has been since she was a child. Multiple food allergies (severe, requires epi pen), thrombocytopenia, and has no spleen.

Well she decided to have two kids and twenty something years later I’m riddled with similar health issues. No thrombocytopenia, but I had the heavy nosebleeds associated with it as a teen and it faded quickly luckily. However I have many food allergies like her, some similar and some different. I’m unhappy and unhealthy and at times I wonder what she and my dad was thinking having kids. My brother used to have allergies too but thankfully he outgrew his unlike my mom and I.

I realize two healthy people can have a sick kid of course, such as my grandparents in regards to my mom, but for her to already be sick and have kids seems selfish to me. I can’t help feeling resentful.

Long story short: I m a broke, ugly 23 yr old female who still lives at home. No college degree because I m stupid and lazy and have no idea what I want to do in life. I do have certifications for hospital work, but I keep getting rejected.

I don t want to hear corny positive advice because life only works out for some people, but not for me.

As for the real question: is it better to use a handgun or shotgun when killing yourself? I m assuming both are a good choice.

When committing suicide with a gun, is it better to aim in the mouth, under the chin tilted up, or through your temple/side of your head. Thanks for any input!

I'm an ugly woman, 21 yrs old. I have watched all my more attractive friends quite easily get jobs, whether they have a lot of experience or not.

I've been turned down interview after interview and I'm growing desperate (I'm broke). I think I sound articulate and friendly, because I had family give me honest answers about my interviewing skills.

Besides dishwasher or pet/baby sitter, where looks don't matter, what other jobs can an unattractive person get? It just sucks because I want to work in retail/cashier/waitress jobs but I suppose my face is an obstacle lol.

I'm 20 years old currently and I feel like I've lived a long, full life. I mean sure there's things I haven't done yet, but I'm over life. I'm lazy, I can admit it. I live at home with my parents and I'm having a hard time finding a job, plus I don't really want to attend college. I don't handle stress well, basically. So I figure if I kill myself not only will my parents not have to deal with me anymore, but I would be happy too because I could finally be at peace and not have to face life anymore. Call it immaturity or laziness, I don't care. I already know I don't have the will to live. I'm ugly, friendless, never had a relationship, etc. I'm basically worthless.

Anyhow, the real question is what should I do before I die? Life fun things to do? I don't have much money right now, so I can only afford free/cheap things to do and/or see. Also, should I leave a suicide note? Thanks!

Okay, well I am a college freshmen, and I have realized I would rather go back to school later for personal reasons. In the meantime I am going to try to obtain a cosmetology license and work part time too.

The problem is, since we're already half way through the semester, the college won't let me drop formally. I would have to just drop all my classes and get a F for them. Will this affect my transcripts if I wanted to apply somewhere else later? Or if I did chose to go back, should I start fresh at a community college and then transfer? Thanks.

After high school, I lived at home for a year or so not knowing quite what I wanted to do with my life still. This year, my parents finally made me go. I thought it would be exciting, but now that I'm here, I absolutely hate everything about it basically. I literally get panic attacks, can't focus, and feel like crying every other day.

I want to drop out, but I can't go back home since my parents don't want me there anymore since I'm an adult. They're not the kind of people who would let their child live with them into their 20's, 30's, etc. like some parents do. I told my parents I hated college and they're still making me go. I even threatened to kill myself, but they're not taking that very seriously either and called me 'selfish' for wanting to do that, which really hurt.

I guess my question is, what should I do? Are there any other options? I figure I could drop out and get a part time job, but I'd be homeless at first because I don't have any family near my college. They're all out of state and some of them are all the way in Sweden. I thought about being a stripper, but I'm not too sure about that. I don't think I'm hot enough and I'm too shy to do that well.

I literally can't stand being here. The semester has barely begun and I dislike it so much. The stress, studying, books, fees, etc. Not to mention I'm not making friends and feel so left out and out of place here. So, what should I do?

After years of claiming that I'm going to commit suicide, I finally feel truly ready to do it. I'm miserable and unhealthy. I see no point in living anymore. My parents are making me go to college as well and I've barely been here a few days and I hate it already. I feel like I'm wasting their money and I don't want to let them down either, but every time I bring it up they're always so positive. "It'll get better!" "You'll like it eventually, don't worry." It's horrible for an anti-social loner like myself, I don't fit in and I feel anxious and homesick.

My actual question is, will consuming an entire bottle of Advil kill me? I want to die so badly, even though death scares me. I need to know if this will definitely work, or if I should try other methods like using a handgun, cut my wrists, hang myself, etc. Thanks!

Of course, tomorrow isn't promised and I realize I could die before I plan to kill myself, but anyway I'm planning on killing myself with a handgun when I'm 21 (because in California that's the age you need to be to buy one). I'm turning 20 this year, so it'll be 2014 when I commit suicide.

That leaves me with about a year or so to do exciting things. My parents are making me go to college finally this year (I'm 19) and I don't want to. I literally find no joy in life. It's stressful, school sucks, working sucks more. I'm socially awkward and unattractive. I've never had a boy/girl friend, sex, romance, etc. Life feels tedious and the smallest things stress me out and make me anxious.

Anyhow, my real question is, with this year I have left what should I go and do? What are some cheap things to do for fun besides the usual? What wild, exciting things should I try to do?

I've been thinking of a few ways. What's best? Cutting your wrists, hanging, or suffocating? If anyone has any other ways, please let me know. Thanks! (:

A few days ago, I purchased some items online. I put in the right number, expiration date, and all that stuff and it showed up almost immediately on my account and deducted the correct amount of money from my checking. But now, only a few days later, for some reason when I go to check it the purchase is just simply gone. It's the weirdest thing, this has never happened to me before. Should I call my bank or something?

Sometimes I really envy the homeless. I would go into detail about my problems, but I highly doubt anyone would actually care. Long story short is I'm a loser who is not likable, I have a hard time getting a job, I'm going to community college which I don't even want to go to (I wanted to go to a 4-year, but didn't have enough money/resources to attend).

I just feel hopeless and I'm tired of disappointing people. I'm tired of having to try so hard to be a normal, successful person and it's not happening quick enough or at all. I'm 18, so I'm technically an adult and able to leave. How should I go about telling my parents I want to be homeless?

The funny thing is, I used to not be afraid at all of flying. I used to enjoy flying alot when I was younger and used to do it frequently, and didn't think twice about it. I wasn't scared, nervous, or anything like that.

But it's been awhile since I've been on one, like a couple of years, and I'm 18 now and in those past few years I've developed some pretty bad anxiety/stress issues.

I'm so scared about flying in a few days that I feel like crying and I can't really sleep. Can I take some Nyquil or Bendryl to make myself sleepy and more calm? What are some other things I can do to calm myself down? I don't want to have a panic attack or something like that.

I'm 18 and I've put off college for awhile now because I graduated high school early. My parents (my mom, mainly) is sick of me being at home and yet I don't really have the means to pay for school. It's so stressful, I'm trying to go to college but it's so expensive and of course being the loser that I am I couldn't get a scholarship and I couldn't find a job because no one would hire me even though I had experience.

Also, I have no friends and I'm quite lonely. I also have many health problems now, which has made my life a bit less enjoyable and has me fearful and nervous most times. I feel really misunderstood and just sick of life. I want so badly to kill myself, but something stops me each time.

I know that if I did attempt suicide, it would be by stabbing myself in the gut or slicing my neck, or choking myself to death. I kind of wish sometimes that I could've been born in a poor country, or somewhere where expectations were lower. Or sometimes I wish some person would just rape and kill me or that I could get into an accident and die that way. I just feel so pressured and stressed out right now, and all I ever feel like doing anymore is crying or panicking. How can I gather the courage to kill myself?

I'm kinda worried, because this doesn't happen often. Everything I eat/drink tastes bad, almost tasteless. It's not because I haven't brushed my teeth, because when I forget to sometimes, food still tastes good/normal to me. Am I dying or something? Diabetes? Fever, maybe?

In my point of view, which might sound silly to some, I think that there are two kinds of people in life: winners and losers. Winners are people whose life seems to flow nearly perfectly, are attractive, have lots of friends, are always posting about exciting/fun events on social media sites, are talented, are funny, awesome, etc.

Then there's losers, like me. Nothing ever goes right for me and people always treat me like I don't matter. I'm kind of a loner and pretty nerdy, which can get boring and lonely sometimes. I don't have any friends, partially by choice but also because people just don't like me. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong, but apparently whatever I'm doing is causing people to dislike me and tease me. I suppose it's because I'm ugly.

My point is, how can I accept that I'm not a winner? Is there a mindset I can have that will allow me to accept the fact that I'm a loser and nothing about that will change? I just feel so worthless right now, and I feel like giving up and just becoming apathetic and cynical. Thanks.

I really need advice. I'm so close to killing myself, like I literally have the knife ready and everything.

All my life, people have treated me like crap. They ignore me, mock me, tease me, etc. with really no regards to my feelings. And if I should try to defend myself and/or show emotion (which is not often), they act like it's a huge problem. Which is hypocritical because everyone has seems to be allowed to have feelings and everyone (usually) treats them with respect.

But I guess people treat me that way because I'm unattractive, and it's easier to pick on ugly people I guess. I'm not sure. Even my own family treats me that way (well, except for my brother).

Anyway, I've been mainly teased for being so ugly. I'm mixed and have wild, crazy poofy hair that I have since given up on. I'm too poor to afford weaves, wigs, relaxers, etc so I usually cover it up with a hat or scarf. Also, my face is hideous, something that could only be changed through surgery, but I don't have the money right now to pay for plastic surgery.

Today was the last straw. Not only did my brother leave me for his (more attractive, interesting) friends and leave me by myself at the pool, but all his friends and this group of hot guys starting teasing me indirectly.

They would loudly say, "Oh, look at her hair! It's like a bush, it's so ugly."

I broke down in tears because this happens so often. I hate being ugly so much, I can't stand it. I would give anything to be beautiful, seriously. So how can I cope with it? What am some advantages to being ugly? Thanks.

Am I the only one who feels this way? What can I do to like people more?

Well, I guess I'll start out by saying that I'm a loner now by choice. I consider myself to be a misanthrope now, I really can't stand people anymore. Especially the younger generation around my age (I'm 18.) They're mostly superficial, rude, ignorant, and just down right mean people.

Like today for example on Youtube, all I did was merely state a fact that got several thumbs up because my facts were correct. Then some random person just had to disagree and then call me pathetic. I mean, seriously? I get feedback like this all the time from random trolls and also from people in real life.

It doesn't matter whether it's the internet or real life, people are just so damn...terrible. I mean, I have faults too, but still. How can I hate people less? I'm so upset at this point that I want to kill myself just to get away from everybody.

It's not so much being on the actual airplane that makes me nervous/scared. It's more the fact that I know we'll be high up in the air. The stupid thing is, I've been on an airplane many times before but I've developed anxiety issues recently and now pretty much everything scares me lol.

How can I relax and not feel like I need to be on the ground? How can I calm myself enough to go on the plane?

What I'm really scared of is having a panic attack. Are there some breathing techniques or things I can do to calm down? And are people allowed to use their laptop on planes? I feel like if I could bring my laptop along, it would be distracting enough to calm me down maybe.