TinyDancer

I've been with the same man for 15+ yrs. Within the last 1 1/2 yrs. we've had alot of problems. We have 4 children and I don't have anyone to help, as far as family. He says I put him in misery, and at times I am there, too. The kids have seen alot of fighting and hurt, but I don't know if I should leave....even though hubby tells me to get out. I like the comfort of having my kids happy, but I hate the tension and lack of respect and care. I think we are more like roommates than anything else. He can't deal with ghosts from the past, and I can't convince him that I know I made mistakes, and feel sorry. There has been alot of fighting and even violence between us.....and still he says I don't know what it's like to hurt. My mistakes happened long before our kids were born, so I don't want them to pay a price for me. They have already seen and heard too much. I just don't know what to do. The clincher here, is that hubby wants me to leave, but he still wants to go out w/ me.