wende_23

I have done some messed up stuff in my day...I have been a bad girl. I am 24, I have had 4 serious relationships since I was 16 and have cheated on all of them. My last man was the worst, I completely dogged him out. I didnt do it to hurt him on purpose, we were living together 3 years, and I was a very good girl...but when he wouldnt put a ring on my finger, I started to get pissed off and bitter. So I cheated on him with my the man I am now married to. We seem to have a good marriage so far, but there have been so many ups and downs, that makes me wonder if Karma has a personal vendetta out against me. I have been married to my husband almost 2 yrs now and I have been faithful, but I am so afraid of what Karma has in store for me that it taints my feelings toward my husband....I always think he will cheat on me....So like I said, what can I do to get rid of this feeling, when will Karma let me be and when will the vivid dreams about my last boyfriend go away?

Before my husband and I were married, while we were engaged, he did that at his friends going away party. He says some of the guys were gonna run a train on her, and he participated by doing that. Of course, he confessed this after we were already married. I am wondering if this is an indication that he will cheat on me again...what do ya'll think...yea I know that was pretty sick...