t3l_em

Wow, I am going to seem like a huge whore. But the truth is, I'm not really like this! Okay, so I had a friends with benifets (bad idea) and we just never broke it off, just talking once in awhile especially after our short fall out because i wanted answers from him...in between this i got a boyfriend who is currently in england on a trip....my 'friend' is coming to see me tomm & driving 2 hours to see me & I don't know what to do. I think I love both guys for different reasons...maybe I don't know what love is. I am going to hurt either one either way & I know them both enough to know that they tell me I shouldn't be upset ever in our relationship and it's always up to me...are they both bad? Or am I just ridiculous? Please help, I feel disgusting...