caped_up_superman_lover

A year ago, my best friend's sister privately cornered me on the front porch at a holiday family function. Without warning she grabbed my body pinning me to the front door while simultaneously making out with my face. I immediately felt this was taboo and explained to her why why we can't do this. She did not care. I was taken in by her adventurous lust and submitted to her wants. We were found pressed up against the side of the house 3 minutes later by a small search party that included her brother who simply looked at me with the blankest of faces then turned around and went back inside. We had a small talk were he basically stated 'Don't do anything weird with my sister!' Ever since our love has been in hiding. I live in California; she lives in New York. I secretly fly to see her in NYC every two months under the guise of visiting my mother in Maryland. We are the easiest couple I have ever seen...it all falls into place: laughter, intimacy, respect...only her best friend knows about us.

However, this underground romance is making me feel very guilty and disloyal...I have tried to tell him about me and his sister, but he wouldn't understand: he still wants a buddy that has lots of sex with multiple women...he is puzzled when I don't want to go out and get drunk and chase girls - he doesn't realize that I am in a relationship and would never cheat on his sister. He is the type of guy that says things like 'Man, you are seriously losing your testicles. Stop being a biatch and let's go get ladies'. I feel like an actor...

I love her...

I want to come out to my best friend about his sister without him being upset or whatever about me basically lying to him for over a year...

Initially we were together every other day...then she dropped a bomb about her ex- they broke up a year and a half ago and she says she isn't over their break up!!! WHAT!!! OMG - she says "wait"...'til when eternity?!! OMG she is so awesome otherwise - I try to block out her presence but it persist to torment me still...