Elena Beers

People tell me all the time, "Why don't you just go to a Rehab? or "just go through the pain" Its not that easy. And I always leave the rehab because they don't make me comfortable when the anxiety and restlessness start to occur. I really want to get off of these pills but I am doing it at home and I was fine taking suboxone and moderately taking xanax (I know I know I am an addict) for the restlessness and anxiety but I have been doing well; not over doing the xanax and only taking it when I start feeling restless, but what I need to know is when I get off the suboxone and take the xanax for restlessness when I stop the xanax will the restlessness still come back? Becuase I read up on RLS (Restless Leg Syndrome) and medications for it. Most are narcotics and obviously opiods and benzodiazapines are two of them but on that site it says that opiods worsen the RLS yet it didn't say that xanax did. Is there ANYONE out there that is going through or went through this that is willing to talk to me, give me an answer or even willing to give me a number so that I can call you to talk about it if you've ever gone through this? I am going to meetings but they are telling me to go to rehab when I know I just need to be comfortable through it and I can do it. Its just that Rehabs do not help you get comfortable and I have tried doing the rehab thing 4 times and I was so uncomfortable that I had to leave because they wouldn't help me and of course I went and used just to feel better. I have been doing it at home and going strong. I haven't done an oxy in 3 days and I go to the meetings for inspiration Im just worried about the restlessness when I get off the xanax. Does anyone know what I should do. THAT KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT> IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN ADDICTED TO OXYCODONE OR AREN"T AN ADDICT AND HAVEN'T GONE THROUGH THIS TYPE OF WITHDRAWAL PLEASE DONT TRY TO ANSWER MY QUESTION. I dont mean to be rude but it is something only an addict can understand.

We are broke and he refuses to stop. He blames me for it because I do things that involve spending money but not too much. He says that he gambles because of me. He won $10,000 last week and this week is in debt $6,000 and we have bills waiting to be paid. I am so sick of this but I know I cant help him unless he wants to be helped. To top it off he's on probation and is supposed to be going to AA meetings and fill out meeting sheets explaining the topic of it. If he doesn't comply he will go to jail. He hasn't been drinking and feels that he doesn't need to go, so in order to keep him out I went to the meetings and completed the sheets for him. If I don't he won't either. I am so sick of this. All he does instead while Im doing his meetings is lose more money to football. I don't know what to do please help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Should I love him or Leave him?

My fiance is experiencing severe agitation in his body due to drug abuse. He is in recovery and attends Drug Court weekly. He is not allowed narcotic analgesics, and anything that includes: Dextromethorphan, Phenylpropanolamine, Diphaenhydramine, Doxylamine and Pseudoephedrine. I am clueless and he hasn't slept in days. I need some advice. We haven't been able to get to a doctor because its the weekend. I really can't afford an emergency room either. Please......ANYONE HAVE ANY IDEAS??????