Heather

For just over a year I have been having severe trouble getting to sleep at night. I have been to the doctors on two occasions and told her everything. She said it would not be a good idea to give me sleeping pills as I am only sixteen. Story Time :

Round about this time last year, I went through an experience with my best friend and the boy I loved(lets call him "J")..... (he didnt know I loved him but he knew I USED to like him, he thought I didnt anymore). Me and "J" had been best friends up into the November 2009, (I had asked him out earlier that year and he said no, that was when our friendship slowly started to crumble.) when someone told me he had said some horrendous things about me on a school trip to Belgium. I of course confronted him about it, he got annoyed, I got upset, and that lead to countless arguments and shouting matches between us. I still loved him, but he didnt know.

For about a year we went through this, untill one night, when I was pouring my heart out to my best friend (lets call her "S") offered to go and speak to "J" and tell him to forgive me. She did, she friended him on Facebook, got talking, and eventually they ended up spending more time together as friends than I ever did.

"S" had a boyfriend, a nineteen year old guy that I had met once. ("S" was four years younger, nobody approved, not even me.)

Me and "J" met up one day down the town and had coffee together, we fixed things up and apologised and everything was okay. But after that, I started to get jealous.

One day, I remember the 5th March, "S", "J" and me had lunch together in the school, I stood with my back to him all that time, knowing that he could talk to her perfectly fine, but not me. I was annoyed, and a bit suspicious.

Then, on the 11th of March, she and him "hung out" together. I knew, she'd told me over text. (she hardly ever came to school due to some stress related stomach problem she apparently had, but never showed any signs of, I know for a fact it was attention seeking and she just wanted to sit a home and drink).

I wasnt really happy at the idea of those two "hanging out". That night, when they were "hanging out", I got a text from her saying that "J" was "so sound". I was getting slightly suspicious, at the back of my head I was secretly thinking that maybe there was something going on between them, but I dismissed it, "she would never do that to her boyfriend" I thought.

That friday, when I was sleeping over at another friends house, I got a phonecall from "S", saying that her and her boyfriend "A" had broken up because some other guy was chatting her up. I went along with it, comforted her while she sobbed and threw out all the gifts he had given her. I just forgot about it and got on with everything.

That Sunday, I logged onto MSN, and a girl who i know quite well (but were not friends) typed this in. "Did you here about "S" and "J" ??" Instantly, just for a second, the idea popped into my head that maybe they were going out. I typed in "no, why". She replied back "there going out." My whole world stopped.

I started breathing heavily, crying, shaking (no exaggeration). She told me to look on Facebook, I did. In white and blue the words " "S" is in a relationship with "J" "".

I spent the whole day crying, comfort eating, wondering why. I wondered if "A" knew. ( "S"'s Ex")

The next morning I was riding on the bus to school, and I had a missed call from "A", that only meant one thing....he knew that they were in a relationship. I called him back and for the next half an hour, he cried and talked about how much he had loved her. And then I found out that they had broken up, because "S" and "J" had cheeted together when they "Hung out".

I was raging, she had lied through her teeth to me on the phone! I had had enough, and I phoned "S" at lunch, and asked her if it was true, she denied it all of course, said that he had "misread the signs and thought they were going out". What a load of crap. I hung up, disgusted at the situation. Then, I decided to go and find "J", I phoned him, said I needed to talk to him. As i walked round the corridor in school, i bumped into him, turns out he had been looking for me too. He denied it all of course, I just said i couldnt believe he would do something like that, then left. He came up to me when I was at my locker at the end of the day, and he said 'im so sorry for what i did i shouldnt have done that sorry'. I told him to phone me.Later that night, we spoke on the phone and i forgave him, he didnt know how much i love him , it wasnt his fault. Couldnt say the same

For just over a year I have been having severe trouble getting to sleep at night. I have been to the doctors on two occasions and explained to her everything. She said it would not be a good idea to give me sleeping pills as I am only sixteen. Story Time :

Round about this time last year, I went through an experience with my best friend and the boy I loved(lets call him "J")..... (he didnt know I loved him but he knew I USED to like him, he thought I didnt anymore). Me and "J" had been best friends up into the November 2009, (I had asked him out earlier that year and he said no, that was when our friendship slowly started to crumble.) when someone told me he had said some horrendous things about me on a school trip to Belgium. I of course confronted him about it, he got annoyed, I got upset, and that lead to countless arguments and shouting matches between us. I still loved him, but he didnt know.

For about a year we went through this, untill one night, when I was pouring my heart out to my best friend (lets call her "S") offered to go and speak to "J" and tell him to forgive me. She did, she friended him on Facebook, got talking, and eventually they ended up spending more time together as friends than I ever did.

"S" had a boyfriend, a nineteen year old guy that I had met once. ("S" was four years younger, nobody approved, not even me.)

Me and "J" met up one day down the town and had coffee together, we fixed things up and apologised and everything was okay. But after that, I started to get jealous.

One day, I remember the 5th March, "S", "J" and me had lunch together in the school, I stood with my back to him all that time, knowing that he could talk to her perfectly fine, but not me. I was annoyed, and a bit suspicious.

Then, on the 11th of March, she and him "hung out" together. I knew, she'd told me over text. (she hardly ever came to school due to some stress related stomach problem she apparently had, but never showed any signs of, I know for a fact it was attention seeking and she just wanted to sit a home and drink).

I wasnt really happy at the idea of those two "hanging out". That night, when they were "hanging out", I got a text from her saying that "J" was "so sound". I was getting slightly suspicious, at the back of my head I was secretly thinking that maybe there was something going on between them, but I dismissed it, "she would never do that to her boyfriend" I thought.

That friday, when I was sleeping over at another friends house, I got a phonecall from "S", saying that her and her boyfriend "A" had broken up because some other guy was chatting her up. I went along with it, comforted her while she sobbed and threw out all the gifts he had given her. I just forgot about it and got on with everything.

That Sunday, I logged onto MSN, and a girl who i know quite well (but were not friends) typed this in. "Did you here about "S" and "J" ??" Instantly, just for a second, the idea popped into my head that maybe they were going out. I typed in "no, why". She replied back "there going out." My whole world stopped.

I started breathing heavily, crying, shaking (no exaggeration). She told me to look on Facebook, I did. In white and blue the words " "S" is in a relationship with "J" "".

I spent the whole day crying, comfort eating, wondering why. I wondered if "A" knew. ( "S"'s Ex")

The next morning I was riding on the bus to school, and I had a missed call from "A", that only meant one thing....he knew that they were in a relationship. I called him back and for the next half an hour, he cried and talked about how much he had loved her. And then I found out that they had broken up, because "S" and "J" had cheeted together when they "Hung out".

I was raging, she had lied through her teeth to me on the phone! I had had enough, and I phoned "S" at lunch, and asked her if it was true, she denied it all of course, said that he had "misread the signs and thought they were going out". What a load of crap.

I hung up, disgusted at the situation. Then, I decided to go and find "J", I phoned him, said I needed to talk to him. As i walked round the corridor in school, i bumped into him, turns out he had been looking for me too. He denied it all of course, I just said i couldnt believe he would do something like that, then left. He came up to me when I was at my locker at the end of the day, and he said 'im so sorry for what i did i shouldnt have done that sorry'. I told him to phone me.

Later that night, we spoke on the phone and i forgave him, he didnt know how much i love him , it wasnt his fault. Couldnt