Priscilla

I have known this guy for 5 years. We are bother in the same year in highschool and we are both 15. Problem 1, i think i love him more than a friend. problem 2, he is my bestfriend.

I want to define my idea of what love is, what i feel with him and why i think i may love him.

So it isnt really butterflies but it's comfort. It is like i am home. People say home is wherever your heart is. It isn't that for me. My heart is with him. I really hate talking like this it is just so cringy but it's actually how i feel.

Him and i have had a kinda on and off thing for the past two years... He would like me while i liked someone else and then i would like him and he liked another girl. It just goes round and round in circles and now i am back to square one. He was telling me about this girl that he likes the other day. I was playing the role of his bestfriend. He doesnt know that i like him but i actually wrote him something a few hours ago. It hasnt seen it yet. It basically is me confessing to loving him.

Another problem is i am scared of commitment. Even if he ended up sharing the same feelings for me that i do for him. I dont think i would date him... because if we broke up then that would just ruin everything.

I know, i know. I am going to get answers on this saying that i am too young to be in love, i dont understand. But i have heard all of this so many times before. But age doesnt stop a heart from loving. It is just like the way you love your mother... I've attached message