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If you really hated yourself, and and wanted everyone to know exactly how you felt about yourself, what would you tattoo on yourself and where?

the Rotten Hollow

Hold it to me

Hold it always

Hold you at bay

Nothing to say

I must conceal it

I won't reveal it

No one else to blame

Walk and hide the shame

See me small talk

See me smiling

Just a decoy

No hope, no joy

Work the underhand

You can't understand

Mask the rot below

Human undertow

Every word the subterfuge - reflect, deflect, affect to hide the truth

Peel me down, onion tears to find the heart of me and there's nothing left

Surveill me and spy the mechanical sad routine that frames my life

Pore over my words for a reason, all lies to hide the rotten core

Truth is a lie and love is gone

The thing inside lives, I am gone

No one left here to embrace me

Nothing left but to erase me

I've noticed that traditionally, Indian women tend to date and marry Indian men only. As well, there is a cultural pressure to marry, and to marry before 30. I am attracted to women of all sorts of races, Indian women included, but there doesn't seem to be any place to meet one who would be interested in dating a white guy like me.

I've considered overseas pen pals etc, but that to me is too wide a gap in experiences. I'd like to date an American girl who happens to be of Indian ethnicity. I realize that there are actually several nationalities that are similar. Is this just culturally too taboo for most Indian American women? Is there anything that might improve my chances to meet or be in social alignment to become a better prospect?

There are certain question topics that seem to invite more than hyperbole and argument... trolls come out of the woodwork in droves for them. If you put the words, Bush, Obama, welfare, Zimmerman, etc., oh my. It gets hard to tell what's a real answer and what's just a rage-producing zinger. Don't even bother with feminism questions... nothing but flame bait.

But I've noticed some stuff doesn't get trolled much. What do you think keeps the trolls away? Boring? Sad? Secret hole in their emotional armor? Give your thoughts.

This is going to be a bit of a tricky question. Said ex-girlfriend is in the past, while said depressed guy still pines for his CURRENT ex-girlfriend (so an old ex, and a new ex). The problem is, the guy knows he's got to work on his issues that make him depressed and made these girlfriends into exes. And he wants his new ex, so going back with the old ex would pretty much end any chance of that happening.

The old ex-gf is the one asking to get back together, and the depressed guy is lonely and sees comfort in this. Even writing this, it doesn't seem tricky at all. It's a mistake. But the chances of getting back with the new ex-gf is practically nil. It ended much more badly than the first relationship.

Should the depressed guy:

a) Work hard against all odds and make himself into the new and better man to win back his true(?) love?

b) Realize that it's a pipe dream getting back with the new ex-girlfriend and see the love that's waiting for him and calling to him, letting happiness back into his life?

c) Forget all relationships, start over, on himself and in life?

I won't tell you my own personal feelings on this (yet), but there was a group who very recently had a special press conference for 5 days in Washington DC to discuss their views on UFOs, aliens, and the government's probable knowledge. They urged the government to disclose what they know about UFOs.

http://www.citizenhearing.org/

My questions to you are: did you hear about this? Did you view any of this on YouTube? Did you watch any witness's testimony all the way through? Did any of this make you research it on your own? Do you think ET is BS? Do you think this conference was BS? I'd love to make an actual poll for these, but I'll settle for your responses.

OK. I know you don't ABSOLUTELY have to use addons. I've spent most my time without using them. But I know a lot of people use threat meters and quest helpers and stuff like Atlas loot. I mainly DPS, and I know how to maintain my threat, so I don't much use threat meters, but I have recently downloaded Deadly Boss Mods. I know healers tend to use something that I think is called Healbot. What else would you recommend as "must have" to really help your game out?

I can't get her out of my head. The sex was fulfilling, kinky, and exhilarating. However, it would only be for sex. I know that's bad, but it is like a crazy obsession. I sometimes catch myself pacing and enacting scenarios in my head where we "by chance" bump into each other, I mention how nice she looks, and then just let it out how I can't stop thinking about her. I fantasize constantly about times we had and times we could have. But there's no way a relationship could work between us. DAMN IT!

I live in the San Francisco Bay area, and so far in my area, the most job postings are for the medical industry, and I'm a video game tester. I know I'll have to switch 'career track' to get something at night, but what's available out there?