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For a registered homeschooler in 8th grade? If it helps, its the paulding county school system.

I'm 13, 5 foot 6, maybe a smidge over that, a size 1 in levi jeans or 3 in hollister, a small/medium in shirts and my friends say I'm skinny, but I still feel so fat and disgusting and ugly. I can't even look in the mirror sometimes without feeling completely horrible about myself and wanting to cry or put my fingers down my throat. I go back and fourth between that and the fact that I'm only a b cup and I feel so flat and overall I just feel terrible about myself and I don't know what to do. I always feel like people are calling me fat behind my back, or that my bf will dump me for a pretty, skinny, not flat girl. I really hate how I look. I'm trying to lose weight in a healthy way but I feel like just starving myself instead, honestly. I did before, and it kind of worked. But I don't like feeling all weak and dizzy and deprived. I feel really fat and unattractive. I mean honestly in every aspect, I'm not just insecure about my weight, I hate my smile. My face is fat and chipmunkish. My eyes are just plain brown. My nose is massive. My teeth are hideous. You can't even see my eye lashes and my eyebrows are bushy. I hate really everything about myself and I don't know what to do it's so depressing. I'm not looking for pity or attention I just want help.

I wrote a fan fiction of the last of us about what would've happened if Joel was too late to save Ellie. If you could read it and give me some feedback that would be great.

"I'm here, Babygirl."

An original fanfiction, based on the Playstation 3 game by Naughty Dog; The last of us. An alternative ending.

Joel had rushed through countless areas of the broken down hospital, brutally murdering anyone who stood in his path, without a second thought. Joel wasn't your typical stone cold killer; He had a reason. The little girl...Ellie. Despite initially giving her the cold shoulder ruthlessly, his efforts to shut her out failed. He came to think of her as a daughter. Certainly no replacement for Sarah, but Joel had a place in his heart for Ellie. He had to protect her, even with his own life if it came down to it. He always knew there was something special about that little girl, and his hunch proved accurate when that patrol officer tested her for the apparent infection. She was the solution to the most horrific epidemic mankind has ever known, and likely ever will know. Sacrificing her life would mean saving the lives of countless numbers of innocent people. They could rebuild society, and humanity could start to heal its wounds, and the world might even start to function normally again. But Joel would never let such a thing happen to Ellie. He would never let them take away his little girl. Bolting up the flight of steps leading to the hallway that would bring him to the operation room in which, in a matter of seconds, Ellie would recieve her fatal operation. Joel was feeling weak and exhausted, and Marlenes men should be catching up with him soon, but he didn't give a ****. All he could do was sprint as fast as he could go, and pray to God that he wasn't too late by the time he reached the operating room. As Joel took those final steps towards the door and burst into the operating room, his worst nightmare was realized in a horrific sight Joel would never live to forget. He was too late. Ellie was already sleeping like a rock on that operating table, with her skull gruesomely split open, as blood slowly oozed onto the fabric covering her face. He rushed over to her corpse, panickedly. He wanted to believe this wasn't Ellie under the sterile material, or that the surgeon could still save her if he forced him to, but he wasn't stupid enough to think either of those. He pulled the fabric back forcefully to reveal her face. He grasped her cold lifeless face in his hands and tried desperately to get a response out of her, still in extreme denial. "Ellie! Its okay now, I'm here, I'm here baby girl.. Ellie, look at me, look at me... Say somethin' damn it! ELLIE! Please... Anything..." As the surgeons stared in confusion at him, the realization hit him that he was a mad man speaking to a corpse. Ellie wasn't in there anymore, She was... Gone. He couldn't save her now. Filled with a blind fury, Joel directed his revolver at the head brain surgeon, sterily gloved hands still covered in Ellies blood. "You... What the **** have you done?! YOU ******* KILLED HER!" Joel shouted with a rage he hasn't felt since that soldier had shot Sarah. "Don't shoot, please!" The head surgeon uttered, absolutely terrified. "Leave him alone, asshole!" Said another surgeon, with a tone of fear in her voice as well. Joel turned briefly and shot her in the face without hesitation, before doing the same to the other, leaving the third to huddle in fear. Joel felt hot tears stream down his cheeks for the first time in a very long time. He broke down and sobbed over Ellies dead body. "They killed her... They killed her..." He muttered to himself, between sobs. "I'm sorry baby girl... I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you." He mumbled, holding onto Ellie's limp hand for dear life. He brushed Ellies auburn hair out of her face and kissed her forehead one last time. "...I'll be with you soon, Baby girl." Joel said under his breath, as he pressed his revolver to his own head, and pulled the trigger.

We're in 8th grade, and we'll have been dating for two months by his birthday. I thought that something like this might be cute:

http://www.claires.com/store/us/goods/non+navigabl...

But I don't know, I don't wanna come off as creepy or clingy or anything. Or maybe something to do with minecraft, because he loves minecraft. I don't know. What should I get him?

I'm bored and Im trying to impress someone by building something really cool in minecraft... Any ideas?

I'm thinking of buying a new Troxel Liberty helmet http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B009SU8VAY/ref=s9...

Anyone have a liberty helmet? are they good? I'm looking for a quality helmet that is lightweight, well ventilated and low profile.

And a pair of Fatbaby boots with a riding sole.

http://www.ariat.com/Western/Women/Footwear/Fatbab...

What do you guys think about fatbabys? As a boot for riding, normal wear, and ranch work. Are they good quality? Also, ladies, do you think they're ugly? My mom says they're ugly for some reason. Does the heel have any issues? I've never ridden in a boot with a roper heel. Will the stitching fall out?

Thanks in advance, and sorry for asking so many questions within a question.

My helmet has never been fallen in before, but today, I fell off twice. I was riding bareback on a 13 hand pony with a rocky trot, and he sped up a little bit while I was off balance and I slid off the side of his back and fell on my side and then my head hit. I wasn't hurt at all, despite a little sore from the impact,so I dusted myself off and got back on the pony. a while later, I basically did the same thing,except I briefly hit a fence. I don't think I have to replace my helmet, since I wasn't even hurt or anything, but I'm not sure. I don't want my helmet to fail me next time. It's a troxel spirit, if it helps to know.

I have tried and tried, but I just can't figure out how to set up my webcam to film me and record my screen at the same time to make gaming videos. I can't find a specific program to do this either. I'll either be using a Dell laptop running Vista with a built in webcam, or a Dell laptop running windows 7 with a built in webcam as well (I think its called something XP super laptop or something?) I am very computer savvy, but I seriously can't figure out how people do that. Webcam is a must because I'll be playing Slender:The Eight Pages and I want them to be able to see me freaking out.

Thanks in advance.

I have several ideas: Crayon box & crayon, cupcake and baker, pack of gum and gum, m&m pack and M&M, etc. Which one should I do? also if you have anymore ideas that aren't too elaborate they are welcome.

This kinda coordinates with this question about my dream: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AkyZc... Anyway, I think my house is haunted. Its an old house and the guy who built it's wife died here. We were told she died naturally, but I'm becoming suspicious. There was blood splattered everywhere in the basement. We were told a renter had dog fights there, but I am suspicious that the guy who built the house killed his wife there. D: I had this freaky nightmare about a blonde woman who resembled the lady who died here. She liked sewing. I sew. When its nighttime and I stop sewing and let the foot up it pops back down, and once the machiene started going without me touching it. When I was trying to fall asleep last night I heard an old woman's voice say "I know what you did. Don't try to hide it you liar!". I keep seeing a woman's shadow pass through the door way. When I was 8 I woke up and my bed was literally being shaken. We always hear loud crashes and nobody is doing anything. She believed everyone should watch only wholesome TV, and the channel skips only when we watch the simpsons or family guy. One time I was listening to music and the music skipped in a way where clear as a bell you could hear "You don't have to die" when that was not in the lyrics at all. Help I think my house is haunted!

Well I had a very strange nightmare the other night, and now I am starting to think my house might be haunted. I'll post more details in my other question and include the link in the details. I sometimes go to sleep in my dreams and dream another dream while still in the first dream. (A little bit like inception but less complicated). I had a dream that my best friend S was sleeping over at my house. S was playing a game on my cell phone, and I decided to sleep a little (still dreaming) I don't know why, but I said "I'll see what I can do." before falling asleep. In the mini dream, I was staring at an older looking photo of a woman. It was framed and under shallow rippling water. As I stared at it uncomprehendingly blood began to drip down my face into the water. I fell foward into the bloody photo and into a 2nd mini dream. I was walking down a creepy white tile hallway that reminded me of a mental hospital and smelled like bleach and charred flesh. A woman that looked like the woman in the photo, except she had severe burns allover her body and burlap covering some of her body stopped me and shoved me backwards and said "where the hell are you going?" and I said "Get away from me!" She laughed at me and said a little too cheerily "We're all gonna die... We'll burn... Melt away. We're all gonna die and we're all powerless against it." I started to get scared and I yelled "No! You're insane! No! No! No! Get the hell away from me you pyschopath!" and she said "Doesn't even matter anymore..." And she turned to ashes. And then, from the darkness at the end of the hall, people started walking towards me. They were burnt and melted too, some had burlap over their faces, others didn't, some I even knew and loved in real life. They all started reaching towards me and I was pushing them away and screaming. It was horrific because I had to defend myself, so I kicked and punched them and my hands and feet cut through their bodies like butter, and I kicked the head off of one of them. They just kept coming and I fell to the ground. I looked down to my body, and I saw I was exactly like them. I started screaming "No! No! no! NO! HELP!" and I woke up in the dream panickedly and then finally woke up for real, screaming and sweaty. I forgot my dream at first, all I could realize was probably the worst fear I've ever experienced. Seconds later I could recall every detail of my dream. I'm begining to think my dreams were being effected by this lady who died in my house. She was a blonde woman similar to the girl in my dream. Help! I will post more info on the lady in my other question I'll post the link in details.

I'm in middle school, I have hair down to my lower back and I'm sick of it. Takes forever to wash and brush, makes me overheat, gets in the way all the time, impossible to work with and sometimes it's weight pulled up in a ponytail gives me a headache and when I'm horseback riding it makes my helmet painful and not fit correctly. (in a ponytail, but I can't leave it down because it gets in my face and I can't see and its really heavy) I wanna cut it to a little above my shoulders and curl it loosely and donate my hair to Locks of love. I'm in middle school, normal weight, 5 3, fair skin and auburn hair and eyes. Sound like a good idea? It has to be functional as I have a lease horse and ride all the time so it can't get in the way. Help?

I'm going to do a halloween show and I have a couPle questions. Ok, first off im kinda nervous that some horses will spook or my horse will.. He's a good boy but he can still get scared. Second, Im not sure what to dress him up as. These are my ideas: hippies, pirates, cake and baker, zombies, cat and crazy cat lady, etc. i need some help. Any ideas?

I might be getting a horse in maybe 6 months or a year. Anyway, I was wondering if there was any suggestions on things I could do to prepare early on. I already have a place to keep it - 3 acres and a 2 stall barn with a tack and feed room. I'm trying to slowly accumulate enough money for the initial costs, and I'm going to try and find a job at a stable contribute to the cost of the upkeep. and my parents will help with upkeep too. Any other tips on preparing?

My lease horse and I are going to be competing in a halloween horse show. No clue what to be... It has to be unique and it must include a helmet and I'd prefer for it to include a saddle also. I will be riding him at the event. He is a 16hh (estimated) american QH, sorrel/chestnut gelding with a blaze.

I am leasing a horse beginning Oct. 1st, and I wanna try riding him bareback. I've only ridden bareback a few times though because the stable I ride at doesn't do bareback lessons. Any advice/tips? I'll probably be riding him on a trail. Thanks in advance.

I'm entering a halloween horse show with a dark brown rocky mountain pony named Ami. I'm not sure how big he is, I've never gotten the chance to measure him. Helmet required. What should I dress him up as for halloween?

I am a lucid dreamer and in entire honesty, I believe that I've shared a dream with someone before. I slept over at my friend's house and she was thrashing about. She woke up and told me that she was having a nightmare that a terrifying girl was attacking her in a cold dim creepy forest. I didn't tell her this, but I dreamed that night that I was walking through an eerily similar forest - Freezing, dark and overall just terrifying. I Heard her scream, and I also heard some other fight noises, like punches, snapping noises, shouting, etc. I could just vaguely see two figures battling it out in the distance, so I ran to the figures to investigate, but I couldn't get past this one point - it was like there was some sort of force field. I tried to make it disappear, and I resorted to plain throwing myself at it to break it down but it never worked. I fell onto the freezing ground and closed my eyes and I woke up. Weird, right? I wake up by falling asleep in my dreams a lot, but one time, I fell asleep, and I was in another place or dream. It kind of strains my mind to try to remember things from that dream because, I don't know why, but during that dream my entire body hurt and my eyes were burning. If I'm remembering correctly I was walking through cobblestone streets, and it was rainy and foggy. Judging by the people and vehicles, I think I was in late 1800s England. I laid down in the middle of the street, and I'm pretty sure I got trampled to death (it hurt) and then I woke up. And both of those things happened before I had even heard of inception. Freaky. I also have problems with not knowing if I'm in a dream or reality. I'm either in a perfectly recreated environment pulled from my memory or a place so vividly imagined I'm 100% sure I'm not dreaming while I'm in that dream. And whenever I'm injured in a dream its really painful and I believe its real til I wake up and check. Weird right? Have any of you guys ever experienced anything similar?

Okay, I'm doing a halloween horse show this year, and the horse and rider both dress up. I think I'm going to be riding this pony I ride in lessons. I'm not entirely sure of his size, but he's a rocky mountain pony, possibly a little roan ancestory, He has a blaze and white socks, and he is fat (Don't worry, he's on a diet to drop a few pounds.) His mane and tail both are brown with light colored natural high lights, his coat is dark brown and his hooves are a lighter brown. If I am not riding him, I will be riding a gaited palomino tennessee walker, or a bay with a blaze. I am a girl, 5'2, with amber hair and a thin build. I want to dress him up like a unicorn but I'm not sure how. What I was thinking was I could dust him down with glitter, make his hair glittery and braid ribbons into it, paint his hooves with sparkly hoof polish, paint designs on him with sparkly horse paint, but I'm not sure about how to make the horn. What do yall think?

Okay, I'm doing a halloween horse show this year, and the horse and rider both dress up. I think I'm going to be riding this pony I ride in lessons. I'm not entirely sure of his size, but he's a rocky mountain pony, possibly a little roan ancestory, He has a blaze and white socks, and he is fat (Don't worry, he's on a diet to drop a few pounds.) His mane and tail both are brown with light colored natural high lights, his coat is dark brown and his hooves are a lighter brown. If I am not riding him, I will be riding a gaited palomino tennessee walker, or a bay with a blaze. I am a girl, 5'2, with amber hair and a thin build. I'm not sure what we should dress up as. help???