Blackjackxx

I really need help, but I don't know how to get it.

The reason is that for about the last three years I've been so depressed, constantly battling through each day. My parents don't even care. I am a middle child, and both my siblings have something wrong with them, but its only epilepsy and dyspraxia.

But my parents obviously love them more than me, and have even admitted it to me. All my mother does is tell me how "I have to do better". At everything.

They kicked me out of my bedroom for my brother, and constantly tell me all the things I do wrong, yelling at me every day. No matter how hard I try to please them, nothing is good enough.

They have taken all my most precious belongings and sold them on ebay, saying I don't deserve them. All they do is yell and scream at me about how worthless I am, but they don't realise how much their words hurt. Sometimes my dad comes close to hitting me, and I'm sure it won't be long before that happens.

Once I started cutting, I tried talking to my friend, realising how serious things were getting, but they just told me how stupid I was.

I'm sick of constantly putting on a smile, faking being happy for other people, while I'm dying inside.

I've even contemplated suicide, and every day I get closer and closer to that point.

I need help, but I can't go to a councillor. If I even hinted at suicidal thoughts, they would tell my parents. Confidentiality only goes so far.

I can't deal with this anymore, and I don't know what to do.

I'm 14 years old and I really want to write a book. I know I have enough patience (I once did an 11,000 word essay for history on slavery). I also have quite a good storyline which I can easily pan out for an entire book, but I'm not sure if I should. Even if it does turn out quite good, I'm not sure if I would be taken seriously......

I have a 7 month old dog who I simply cannot train to stop biting and barking. Even if I'm just sitting on the sofa, one minute he's fine, chewing one of the thousands of toys I have bought him, and the next, he'll just attack me. I mean, its not serious biting, just scraping his teeth against my arms. Also, he'll NEVER bite my face, and I he does accidentally, he'll lick it straight afterwards, and then carry on biting.

We have tried EVERYTHING, ignoring him, giving sharp screams when he bites, saying NO, spraying him with water, holding him down by his collar, putting him in another room to calm down, putting him outside. I won't do anything like hit him, even lightly, because there is always a better way. I just don't know what to do, and I worry I I leave it too long, he won't get out of it and will have to be put down, and I would hate to do that because I love him so much. Please help! I would hate to have to give him away.

Because I live in the U.K. most websites that use streams such as Hulu won't let me watch Merlin. Also, I have a netflix account, but unfortunately, Merlin is not on there. Please suggest a website that is virus free! Thank you for reading! :)

I bleached my hair yesterday and I left it in a conditioner wrap overnight and I have just washed the conditioner out. I had planned to dye my hair today, but it says on the box (schwartzkopf live XXL absolute platinum) that it is to be put on unwashed hair. What do I do?

P.S. I don't have time to do it any other time than today! Sorry!

I originally had very dark hair, but have been dyeing it for several years now. But today (2nd March, 2013) I decided to bleach it with Jerome Russel's BBlonde for dark hair (I had a dark red dye on my hair). It didn't work out, as i missed large patches of my hair. I expected it to go orange so thats not a problem but I am unsure if I should bleach it again in a 1:1 conditioner and bleach ratio (to try to keep it fairly healthy). After bleaching it, it still looks and feel shiney and soft, thank god. I would be very grateful for any suggestions.

P.S. I *seriously* cannot afford to go to the hair dressers to get it done, so taht a definate no.

P.P.S. Sorry in advance for the spelling mistakes.