Chloe

I found out not long ago I was born with a heart murmur. As I was adopted and forms were lost, my parents assumed it was an innocent one and that I have probably grown out of it. However I have suffered from asthma my whole life, I struggle to walk upstairs without getting out of breath and all my life I haven't been able to do any cardio related sports. Could they be related? I understand your not doctors, I'm just looking for some friendly advice and opinions.

i have tried for months to think about why i get so attached to people, especially teachers and friends parents. i get so attached to teachers that when i have to move classes a cry (bit childish as i am 14). i then feel the need to miss behave for the new teacher until a few weeks later i get attached to them. could it be because of family problems or am i just a weirdo?

- when i was younger i didn't eat anything until i was 5 years old (thrived on milk and became seriously ill).

- i couldn't sleep in my own room until i was 13 years old.

- i have been bought up by my grandparents as my mums been diagnosed with, dyspraxia, ADHD, schizophrenia and bipolar (are any of these genetic?)

- i suffer from panic attacks, mainly on days of sports (however i enjoy sport alot)

- my hearing speciallist told me he thinks i have something wrong with my concentration, i have always denied it

- i sulk and cry when i loose little things (etc.. gloves, socks, pens)

- my friends, teachers and carers call me immature or to hypo

- im 14 and i still have urges to run around and scream

- teachers say i do silly things for attention

- i cannot go a day without getting told off at school, if i do manage to i feel like i need to misbehave even more the next day, so that my mind tells me i have achieved something.

- i only ever excel and try hard in lessons i enjoy (ones that do not consist in alot of writing or thinking)

- i have urges where i HAVE to hurt someone, for example if i have a hard ball and something in my mind told me to throw at someone the urge becomes so strong i have to do it, however i cannot control the urges.

- teachers compare me to a five year old and constantly tell me not to shout out or run around the class room.

- i am alot more hypo at school than home, however get more angrier easily at home.

- i would still love to play mums and dads,or hide and seek if i had the chance to.

- i argue with teachers constantly because i have something in my mind that tells me there trying to overpower me and i cant let that happen.

- i hit people i care about (close friends, relatives)

- i find it hard to get along with my mum

- but what i dont understand is at school i couldnt sit and watch a film because i'd loose focus however at home i'd find it alot more easier to focus on things.

- people say im like a boy because of my hyperactivity

- at school especially, my mind feels like its working at 100mph nothing makes sense unless the teacher sits next to me and re-explains what s/he has just spoken about.

-however my school seem to think i have nothing wrong with me and blame on bad home life, they say i just do things for attention,i think not. somebody please help me!