colton

I live with my mom and her boyfriend who is an illegal canadian. I just don't know what to do :c they've never done anything for me because i'm the youngest of 3 children. They never gave me a phone, and never paid for my drivers education classes let alone taught me themselves(i'm self taught). I love my mom and i'd do anything for her but i'm just tired of everything(i'm not contemplating suicide or anything)When i go out with friends it's always be home at 5 so you can cook following another hour of doing dishes and all the chores associated. But my step dad is a complete douche all he does is call me lazy and yells at me because i dont have a job. I've applied everywhere within walking distance and use my moms number, they either dont call or she doesn't answer..idk. I've tried working with friends but have been denied the job for unknown reasons...i'm not in bad shape or anything, i'm 6'1" 190lbs and i'm very smart but my only resource as of now is the internet where I teach myself many things. My friends want to get a place but i need a job so i can pay my cut but idk what to do. I feel like i'm some servant that's meant to serve my parents and it's frustrating. I want out, i want to go back to school, i want to travel to japan and many other places, and most important to me is that i want to support my girlfriend and our future family. i dont know how anybody can help but i needed this, to vent the emotions i hold back because i dont want to look weak. Thank you all