Jeff

I am quite intellectual, not to be a bigot or anything, because i am depressed and drink alcohol every day and have a mundane way of perceiving life, human connectivity... i like a girl on facebook, i think too much (about everything all the time). Now because the last five days i have been in a muddle in mind and soul, drugs were consumed and didn't talk, she would have like me too speak with her, now i try too talk as though normal, But nothing from her... now i am distressed as is the norm with my very lost self. I feel scared or uneasy at showing love whether fragile or easy going it is.. but then what is so bad, but then why show such loving compassion for someone you don'y know so thouroughly?