Shrek

So this guy I met on vacation last year and slept with the second and last time I saw him, asked me that night if I loved him

He's 26 and I'm nearly 22 but he has a great job and I'm just a pathetic student with no direction in life

Last time we texted I said "I know it's too late" talking about the possibility of a relationship and she sent a message then unsent it. It's Benn a Month that we haven't texted

Like I hate watching happy romance movies càuse i just get jealous it doesn't make me happy i much prefer sad depressing movies where the main character suffers or is kidnapped or raped or something.

 I avoid watching YouTube videos I of happy people especially couple's like just now i stumbled across a vidoe of a couple announcing theie pregnancy and they were so damned happy it made me bitter and depressed.And when bad things happen in the world like people dying I feel rejuvenated and happy that that's not happening to me. Even simply seeing a happy couple or person I. The street makes me depressed.I don't know if I am so bitter because of the fact that I had literally zero friends in high school I talked to ******* nobody and nobody wanted to talk to me and I would hide during recess in the toilets or the library.

So last night I had a very weird dream I'm not going to go into all the details but basically I remember I was leaning into a really cute guy he was sooo hot and I remember him sqeazing my hand and it felt really good being so near him and feeling his body against mine

Like I hate watching happy romance movies càuse i just get jealous it doesn't make me happy i much prefer sad depressing movies where the main character suffers or is kidnapped or raped or something.

 I avoid watching YouTube videos I of happy people especially couple's like just now i stumbled across a vidoe of a couple announcing theie pregnancy and they were so damned happy it made me bitter and depressed.And when bad things happen in the world like people dying I feel rejuvenated and happy that that's not happening to me. Even simply seeing a happy couple or person I. The street makes me depressed.I don't know if I am so bitter because of the fact that I had literally zero friends in high school I talked to ******* nobody and nobody wanted to talk to me and I would hide during recess in the toilets or the library.

Last time we texted about a month ago, the last text I sent was " I know it's too late", talking about having a relationship and dating, and she sent a message then unsent it. We haven't texted since

I met last year and slept with him once the second and last time I saw him on vacation

Last time we texted it was last month

I constantly think of this guy I met twice last year on vacation and had sex with the second time. I think of him when I wake up, when I go to sleep, he is practically always on my mind

I met last year and slept with him once the second and last time I saw him on vacation

I think of him every single minute