Aeshin

well a few months ago..we got into a big argument...she was telling me she needed time to think of our relationship...i was trying to be patient and everything until we got back together...then a month later we find out shes pregnant. mood swings and everything..things are quite rough. yesterday she confessed to me she slept with her ex back when we had our first big argument. she's asking for paternity test..i couldnt hear anymore and i left the car before she even finished to say anything and told her ''you brought this upon yourself..i told you as long as that guy is going to be in your life hes going to poison it and u didnt want to listen. now no matter whos baby it is im not interrested in being with you anymore''

pretty much said that during the confusion, since i was getting dizzy and was about to pass out in the car i had to go away...it was too much for me to handle at that very moment.

other thing i have to explain is that she has been with that guy for 3 years...they've been in some bad relationship (fist fights, cheating etc etc...) so i never trusted her with that guy. i'd trust her with anyone else..just not him...i tried telling her to change her phone number etc etc she tells me the only reason why she keeps talking to him is so that he doesnt send her wall of texts and break her phone (which happened in the past)

now i regretted saying things too fast...i tried to hear her story and she told me she was forced into it..that he bought illegal stuff and alcohol..she said she refused the stuff but did drank..she was in his car and kept trying to say no until he pushed her to her limits and she was scared of him to the point she couldnt say no anymore. she told me she felt she got 'raped'...but a month ago she also told me she still loved him at some point. so i dont know is she just playing with me?? being honest with me was from her own will or because she had no choice cuz her ex wants to have a paternity test and i would have known one way or another??! she's probly feeling extremely guilty about all of that... is she guilty for the good reasons..?

but now im extremely confused about all of this...shes saying she wants to disappear and never come back (while being pregnant) i told her i regret saying i wasnt interrested in her...(she has self-harming tendency...which she stopped when we started going out together...)

shes at 9 weeks, i did the calculation and the baby should be from me plus the fact she had her periods not long after she slept with her ex....but im still feeling extremely backstabbed about all of this and i dont know what to do..some people told me to run...maybe im just stupid but i do love her and i cant do that..

doesnt excuse the fact she was in his car that time and made the decision to be with him knowing what kinda person he is...

what would u guys do...? :S