Laney

I was in a casual relationship for a while, my first "love", I liked him so much and I was  so naive but I still knew he was bad news because all the red flags were there so I told myself I just wouldn't take him seriously. He took me on 1 date and then we kind of fell off and then we started casually having sex and I started pushing exclusivity and he'd tell me how much he loved me and liked me but we weren't ready for a relationship. I felt so disrespected but it was my fault for letting him have the benefits of a relationship without the title. He'd say I love you and kiss me goodbye and text me everyday. I kept seeing him (dumb) and it hurt so bad because he'd take me to the movies or mcdonalds, or we'd hang out at his house. We didn't always have sex but he wouldn't commit. I felt so trapped and like I hated him because I loved him but I felt like he was leading me on and it was driving me crazy. He kept saying i love you I want to be with you but let's take it slow. For over a year. My confidence was diving but i literally had no interest in anyone else. I'd call him crying or yelling at him or just trying to be nice almost every day and he'd get irritated and tell me to hang up the phone and i'd be like ok lets stop talking but then he'd just call the next day and pretend like i didn't "break up" with him,my mind was driving me crazy and i recently just stopped talking to him for good. but i still think about him constantly nonstop i'm so obsessed and im scared