Jack

I met my ex girlfriend in school when we were both just 14 years old. Currently we are both 20. We got together in school and the relationship was the farthest thing from perfect with lots of break ups and make ups. I think we broke up at least 5 times in those 6 years. I haven't been the perfect boyfriend I did so much horrible stuff to her and I hurt her a lot. One year ago we got back together again after a break up and I loved her so much so I decided I am not going to hurt her anymore and I'll do my best to be the perfect boyfriend for her. It was very rough at first but then we both felt very happy together and we were just so in love, and I honestly did treat her right this time I was the best person I could be to her.

Anyway a year later (around a few weeks ago), she tells me she is still hurt because of the stuff I did to her (which are horrible I have to confess), but she also told me that she has a crush on a guy in her university. She left me with absolutely no regard to my feelings and she told me that she didn't leave me because she crushed on another guy, she was gonna end our relationship anyway because she was hurt. Later I find out she went out with the guy and they made out.

I feel like crap as I still love her so much and she just left me alone all of a sudden and it tore me apart. My heart is beyond broken and the images I get when I think of a guy kissing the girl I loved since I was 14 years old haunts me.

How can I forget this and move on?

I met my exgirlfriend in school, we were 14. I loved her but then suddenly I stopped caring. I started talking to and crushing on other girls while we were together. I ignored her texts and treated badly. I started to just use her physically with absolutely no regard to her feelings. She used to send me nudes and I used to share them with my friends. I lied to her and I betrayed her and broke her heart and trust in every way you could imagine and she still loved me. Then one day it got too much and she dumped me. She became self destructive and started making out with every guy she bumps into. When I knew about that suddenly my conscious kicked in and I felt bad for all the **** I put her through and what it has done to her. Then it grew from just regret to actual feelings. I was honestly in love with her again and it drove me crazy. I started talking to her again and I tried really hard to get her back. She still had feelings for me and therefore she got back with me (At this point in time she didn't know what I had done behind her back i.e. sharing nudes and using her). I was so happy I got her back and I honestly started treating her right because I loved her so much.

One day she checked my phone and she found out everything. She was devastated and she dumped me. We are both 20 now and she now got a new boyfriend which she loves and I'm here still drowning in self loathe and regret because of what I did to her. I also still love her but she's well over me now. Opinions?