clarus

i want to share and read what other people thing and do after stopping. i stopped years ago, but i still have the scars, and that fact somewhat discourages me. is there a forum or something alike?

i always give up on things, im self destructive, i hate myself, im never happy, nothing interests me, i always give up on my plans to improve myself.

ive always been like ''i cant do it to my parents'' but there must be other reasons to not just commit suicide. i need something to motivate me rn.

I've been working out in the gym for a long while now, but because of reasons, I can no longer go to the gym. I want to start working out, outside. Like running and doing certain exercises. The thing is, I want to lose weight fast.

How much can I exercise in a day (hours) before it becomes a health issue.

+ how many times and how much should I eat to get the most efficient/best result?

I'm 19 years old male. I weigh ca 175 and I'm 174 cm tall.

I want to get into the music game. I want to make all kinds of music, but firstly i want to learn how to use programs, what programs to use and how to promote myself and stuff like that.

Question is: How do i get started aka. How did you get started and how did a lot of successful indie musicians get where they are from 'nothing'