Aycheff

Short history of my life. I grew up with a very religious family. They weren't fanatical, actually very open minded people, but from a young age I was very encouraged to chase spiritual pursuits more than material ones. I'm really grateful for this, but in many ways I believe it wounded my motivation for material success.

When I was 18 I joined an ashram in India dedicated to playing music for God (Krsna). I learned how to play this music inside and out. for 3 years I sang and played drum for God and I can say I became very adept at it. As i grew older and into my 20's I started questioning my faith, as many do. I left the ashram, fell in love with a girl, and got married. It wasn't until half way through my marriage I realized I had no knowledge of how the real world worked. This was very hard for me and my wife. I found some odd jobs, but I didnt feel like i was going anywhere. This caused a lot of turmoil in my relationship. The combination of my lack of wisdom in the real world and her lack of emotional support surrounding that problem caused our relationship to end. so now here I am, single 27 year old. I just dont know what to do with myself, I feel lost, I feel like I have nothing to give. I can't think of anything I want to study in school, nothing is inspiring. My only skill is music, and we all know how many successful versus unsuccessful musicians there are in the world. Luckily I am part of a band so I make a little something, but I still live with my parents.

about an hour after i ate it i vomited for about 3 hours. as well as diarrhea. definitely got every last bit out thats for sure. its been almost 2 days since, i feel like 90% fine. but im still worried. it definitely was not the fabled "destroying angel" mushroom. but im wondering if theres other mushrooms that can kill you or cause liver failure a few days later. im a really broke person with no insurance so i dont want to go to the hospital unless i know i have to. what should i do?

im so ****** up right now i can hardely type this. i ate a magic mushroom like an hour ago and all of a sudden i started vomitting like a mad man. i vomitted every piece of anything in my stomach and now im vomitting blood! WTF IS HAPPENING!!!!!! IM FREAKING THE **** OUT

I recently got with this beautiful girl and we have already fallen in love completely. I know she loves me, but sometimes I trip out cause I know of her past. She used to **** guys all the time, she's cheated on a few, used to smoke and drink like crazy etc. She tells me she's changed now and all of that is behind her because she knows I'm her soul mate. What we have is special, I'm sure, but the thought of her ******* all these guys before really trips me the **** out. I feel like she's become somewhat impure or something. I feel like an asshole saying that but how can I have sex with someone who tons of other guys have ******. I guess I just wanted some other people's opinion on the matter, thanks

Edit: her ''past'' was just a couple months ago

I recently got with this beautiful girl and we have already fallen in love completely. I know she loves me, but sometimes I trip out cause I know of her past. She used to **** guys all the time, she's cheated on a few, used to smoke and drink like crazy etc. She tells me she's changed now and all of that is behind her because she knows I'm her soul mate. What we have is special, I'm sure, but the thought of her ******* all these guys before really trips me the **** out. I feel like she's become somewhat impure or something. I feel like an asshole saying that but how can I have sex with someone who tons of other guys have ******. I guess I just wanted some other people's opinion on the matter, thanks

i dont know if youd say that it was me who cheated. maybe i homewrecked? anyway thats what happend. i slept with my best friends fiance a few times and after we stopped doing that we would still see eachother for "other things". not sex but about third base stuff id say. i genuinely feel awful about what ive done to my best friend. what compelled me to keep doing it even though i felt bad every time? i guess i really liked the girl on an emotional level even. anyway, weve finally stopped and i skipped town to stay with one of my friends. i wrote him a letter explaining everything and demanded that SHE give it to him. so im pretty sure she did, at least thats what the rumors of my other buddies tell me. at this point i dont know what to do next. i just want to have my friend back and i want him to know how sorry i am

does anyone know of any good music creation programs? not for mixing/editting recorded music, but creating music through the program. something with many instruments and good sounds. not like the old super nintendo MIDI compositions, but i want the instruments to sound real and acoustic not so elecric/digital

ok here goes...ive known this girl LITERALLY my whole life, we are practically brother and sister...i never really thought we would "have" anything together simply cause we know eachother SO well...ive seen her go through a boyfriend or 2, shes seen me go through some...plus shes friends with my sisters so we are really like one big family....ok so one day im sittin on the couch with her watchin TV which is totally normal for us and in no way awkward, hot, or kinky...so anyway were sitting there...all of a sudden she puts her foot on mine....then her hand on my hand...next thing u know we are holding hands....a few minutes later she comes close to me...finally shes says it "i think i like you"...it was weird for me coming from someone who is like family...anyway, i kinda didnt respond much...the next day she decides to spend the night at my house....she hung out with my sisters mostly and when night came she slept in my room while i slept on the couch which is what usually happens with she spends the night cause im just such a nice guy ;)...lol anyway heres where i get stupid...around 2 in the morning id say, i go to my room...i see her sleeping there and i kind of wake her up....she practically pulls me into the bed with her and before u know it we are making out and stuff...at one point i stop everything and say "i want you to know, none of this is going to be serious, im not ready for any kind of relationship or anything" she thought about it a while, and pretty said ok and we continued...we never had sex though it did get slightly sexual....anyway this kind of thing where i went to my room while she was sleeping in it happend 3 times total....the 3rd time we did it she was talking a lot of the time..asking me if i liked her...and stuff like that...i was a little put off by the questions cause i THOUGHT i had made it clear that this wasnt going to be serious...so i repeat myself and tell her that i dont want anything serious....so she says we shouldnt do this anymore...i play it out a little longer then after a while she leaves and says again that we wont do this anymore...shes friends with my sisters right? so my sisters tell me that shes been talking to them and she basically is super mad at me and hurt by me cause she thinks i just played her and how could i do that to her after knowing her so long.....my question is who is really right in this situation, i didnt intentionally set out to play this girl, she made a move on me first....and am i really horrible for doing what i did to someone ive known my whole life? im not asking what i should do now cause im already talking to her about it...im asking from a third party perspective who is right and who is wrong and what is what and just opinions i guess

i met this girl recently and we got along very well...i met her at this kind of cultural event and we pretty much hung out the whole time. every time she said she had to go do something i would say "do you want me to come with you" and she said sure. then when i would say something like "im hungry im gonna go grab something to eat" she would then come back with the same "do you want me to come with you"...there were a few little signs like this plus the fact that we were hanging out most of the time...plus we exchanged phone numbers and text each other with casual talk once and a while...does this girl like me or is she just being nice to me and considers us friends?