KEELIS

I was on lithium for 2 months because I had a psychotic mental break down at home during my marijuana addiction. (I freaked out at home and was screaming and threw something at a wall, like a temper tantrum). When I was on this I would wake up every morning and cry. I was on risperidal too. I Have also been smoking marijuana regularly since 9th grade. I am now going into my junior year of college, and I am now quitting. But I feel super slow all the time and like I am not in control of my body. It's like I have no coordination or something. I also get "stuck" a lot.(zone out) I also hear conversations in my head all the time, its like mind chatter. I understand that because I have been using for so long this is a difficult time. I'm mostly wondering about the lithium, because I read that causes permanent lethargy....will I ever be functional lol. Please help with any good advise, it would be much appreciated.