Lily

So this evening when I went to take a shower, I removed my bra and noticed that the skin on the under side of my breasts (towards the inner side so about where they curve away from each other) had a very different texture than the rest of my skin.

So I took my shower, I scrubbed with body wash and a sugar body scrub. I could during most of my shower still distinguish the spot, though not as distinctly.

Now, after my shower, I've dried off and its still there.

I tried to Google it, and found a bunch of things itchy dry skin as an infection, but it doesn't ouch and there's almost no redness, not to mention I had actually recently washed this bra and I didn't sweat at all or even yesterday.

Part of me is freaking out because there's a history of cancer in my family, but I know I shouldn't freak out yet.

Anybody have any ideas?

So my period should have been here this past week or should be here this upcoming week.

My body has felt like it's here. But there's no blood. I have had uncomfortable muscle movement down there usually tells me I'm bleeding. And today I had a really bad cramp and nothing.

Yes, I've been sexually active recently, though we used protection, it was one, and he pulled before finishing (since he finished himself and took a little bit of time..not a lot but still, obvious it didn't happen until after he pulled out)

Am I just freaking myself out or could something be up?

I want to play a relationship simulator. not download, not sims, and very adult like. I don't want just dates, I want something that starts with meeting the first date, the problems in the relationship, all of that. anyone know of one?

I mean, I chose abortion. And after a few months I am wishing I had the picture. I was wondering, do they print it out for your medical file? If so, could I go see someone to get a copy of it? Please, this is very important to me.

I'm technically in a relation ship with him. this is what I posted on my other questions: So a few weeks after I broke up with my ex I join meet-me and okcupid....not for the dating aspect but to make friends because I was really lonely. Well, I ended up meeting this really sweet guy. He's your typical nerd, 20, lives at home, jobless, loves dnd....he's really sweet. And we have become really close. But I think I mistook love fore infatuation. I love him as more of a friend, and I feel really bad, but I don't want to keep leading him on this way.

Unfortunately for me, I already know he won't handle it well. He was having a tough time a while back and I said would do anything it took to help, even if it meant I went away for a little, which he responded by saying it would send him into another soul-shattering depression (he had gone into one after his ex left him).

I don't see him a lot (he didn't go to my school and lives in the next town over....however we do use Skype a lot) but I don't want to make plans to see him just to hurt him. I wouldn't be able to handle seeing him hurt...what can I do?

The reason I'm worried about hurting him is 1) I am the kind of person that doe not enjoy causing pain, emotional or otherwise 2) we have gotten really close really fast (both of us tend to get attached fast) and so I feel like he might think I wasn't genuine at all at any point.

Maybe I should state this: I did make it very clear I only wanted to be friends when we first started talking. I was the one to message him because of our high match rate I was simply curious. So we started talking as friends. I simply found myself developing feelings for him and things developed a little more when we learned it was a mutual response. There was a moment when I told him I was afraid I was rebounding and he seemed very understanding, but now that things have progressed a little more I have to explain that those feelings were fleeting and while I love him, I realize now that it's just as a friend.

Maybe I should state this: I did make it very clear I only wanted to be friends when we first started talking. I was the one to message him because of our high match rate I was simply curious. So we started talking as friends. I simply found myself developing feelings for him and things developed a little more when we learned it was a mutual response. There was a moment when I told him I was afraid I was rebounding and he seemed very understanding, but now that things have progressed a little more I have to explain that those feelings were fleeting and while I love him, I realize now that it's just as a friend.

I need the advise because we technically decided to make it official that we are in a relationship, and when we met we have kissed and made out. But now that I reflect I feel like it was me burning off the energy I had from my last relationship that had lasted two years. I don't want to hurt him, but I don't want to be with him mostly because 1) he doesn't seem to have any ambitions in life and while normally I can handle that, he doesn't seem to want to have them which I don't think is good for a stable future 2) we both have really low self esteems and I don't think that is helpful to either one of us 3) he says he's grateful to the fact that his parents took him back in after he dropped out of high school and has no job, but complains that his mom keeps asking for his help and that he has to put up with all this family stuff 4) I just moved on.

So a few weeks after I broke up with my ex I join meet-me and okcupid....not for the dating aspect but to make friends because I was really lonely. Well, I ended up meeting this really sweet guy. He's your typical nerd, 20, lives at home, jobless, loves dnd....he's really sweet. And we have become really close. But I think I mistook love fore infatuation. I love him as more of a friend, and I feel really bad, but I don't want to keep leading him on this way.

Unfortunately for me, I already know he won't handle it well. He was having a tough time a while back and I said would do anything it took to help, even if it meant I went away for a little, which he responded by saying it would send him into another soul-shattering depression (he had gone into one after his ex left him).

I don't see him a lot (he didn't go to my school and lives in the next town over....however we do use Skype a lot) but I don't want to make plans to see him just to hurt him. I wouldn't be able to handle seeing him hurt...what can I do?

I'm 17. My boyfriend and i decided, we want a child, but we aren't trying. i ended up posting a question here last night because my body was not being normal, and everyone seemed to think i was pregnant. it kind of got our hopes up. this morning, i got my period though. Now both my boyfriend and i are kinda upset.

I know you'll tell me to be happy, i shouldn't want to be a mom now and i should be careful. but right now, i just want advice to get past this, because it's really got me down. none of you will change my mind. i know we can do it because we have a plan.

I have good reason to believe i might be pregnant. i posted a question earlier here:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AqtJa...

and i have a test (from a scare a few months back). I want to know if i should test tonight or wait for tomorrow morning when the box says is the best time...just want opinions. i can't decide

I have good reason to believe i might be pregnant. i posted a question earlier here: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AqtJa...

and i have a test (from a scare a few months back). I want to know if i should test now or wait for tomorroq...just want opinions. i can't decide

so i had sex last tuesday. my boyfriend says it take approximately three days to conceive and ive read implantation bleeding occurs about 6 days after conception. my period was three days late. and about seven days after a possible conception date. today should have been the third day. instead it just started today. but it started with a brownish color that doesn't usually happen until the after my period, and when it did get reddish pink, the flow is a lot less than usual. could it be implantation???

There is a girl at my school, who's a total slut. She doesn't use protection, she's not on birth control. Well, a friend told me she was supposedly pregnant, but she can't tell her mom because her mom would force her to get an abortion. She is a minor, like 15-16 area. Can her mother do that? I don't think it's right or fair, but that girl deserves it. She also was going to try and hide it until four months, but said her mom would make her put it up for adoption. now as much as i would love for her to be punished for slutty ways, if she wants to keep it, that child would be messed up (if she is pregnant, i don't really believe her that much, she's also an attention slut.) so can her mother really do that? Also, is having sex the first trimester really bad, because her next idea was o have sex with any guys that were large in tha department to cause herself to miscarry. thanks for satisfying my curiosity.

So many people here ask if they're pregnant. They say when they had sex and then claim they have symptoms only days later...so how soon can they REALLY show up? Especially the nausea?

this is info that might help you formulate answers. i am 17 my mother had me her senior year at 18. her father was/might be an slcoholic. her parents divorced. she drives a scholl bus but just got a new job as some kind of secretary for schools. her husband is 13 years older than her and only 8 years younger than her father. they fight a bit. she has a younger sister who also had a child in school. i have been a pretty good child. only a few isdues with school and very minor lies.

so heres what she does. first off, she wont let me see a cousin has never given me a reason for it. when i see her, i cant tell my mom because she would stop me visiting the family that gives me that opportunity. i used to see the cousin a lot. then it just stopped. i mean with my mom knowing. she also doesnt like any family on her dads side. she hates my dad. and has at one point threatened to not let me see him because i didnt answer a question the way she wanted. but now the biggest problem is that she yells at me. for everything. no matter how miniscule the mistake. she even yells when i offer to help her. like this evening. we got pizza. so she went to go get it and stopped at the store. i eent to the car to see if she needed any help carrying things and she yelled "NO!".

so. why would she do those things? i think its because sge regrets havibg me in school and that she thinks i cant make up for ruining her life because of choices she made. please help me. i cant stand that my mother seemss to hate me with no reasons. i already have a dark mind. and at one point did consider suicide, have thought about running away, and still think about suicide. im just to scared to go through with either. so any one with theories, please tell me them. it would really help me push aside bad thoughts.

So I left my dad and step mom a note explaining how I don't feel wanted because of several actions of theirs, such as giving my room to my brother, promising to finish the laundry room and put a screen or something to block the washing machine and dryer, and to not do laundry on weekends I'm there because it makes the room uncomfortably hot and humid. But they have not kept any of those. And to avoid saying something I might regret and cryinga lot. I left a note before returning to my mom's. Considering that they usually keep promises to my brothers and I said I might not go up as often because I don't feel at home, do you think they'll actually keep their promises to me? Or risk not seeing their only daughter?

i posted this a few times last night. and after thinking, i am still leaving a note. but this is how its going to be. instead of:

"I am leaving this note because i cannot say this without something impeding what i am trying to say. But the fact that you are painting bob's room is total Bull S***. Let me tell you why. First off, that was MY room. MINE! You promised me it. But just because bob and luke fight all the time, they couldn't share a room. They STILL FIGHT. It has done nothing. And Bob rarely uses it anyway! But whatever. I accepted that. Then you said you would try and turn the laundry room into a bedroom for me. Still in the basement. I said okay! But you didn't start working on it. Instead, you had to replace windows. and i get that. that was important and makes sense. but you said you were going to replace mine and didn't. And now you painted the kitchen the basement living room, and are working on bob's room, yet you have DONE NOTHING for mine. You promised and haven't. That hurts. I come here and feel like a toy put into the most convenient spot. i don't feel like your daughter. I feel like a forced burden. So, until there is some changes, i will not be speaking unless necessary. And if luke is a brat to me. i will yell at him. I will yell at anyone who is a brat. or an @ss. I'm sick of feeling horrible when i come here and yet you say you miss me. So you need to work on things. I figure by the time i get a "room" i'll be moving out. That is unless you're willing to make some changes. Don't call about it either, because when we talk my mom will ask questions and i won't lie. and then she wouldn't let me come up. If i don't get any respect no one else does either. it's only fair."

Which was a little harsh, i am going to write this:

"Hey. I wanted to let you know that it hurtrs that you are so busy painting bob's room and the rest of the house, when you guys took my original room, and placed me in the unfinished laundry room, you promised you guys would start working on it when the waether got warmer. and that was about a year ago. and you still have done nothing. You keep putting it off and it isn't fair. I might only be here every other weekend or so, i still have feelings and i am still family. Seeing as i didn't really get a birthday present (which didn't bother me all that much) i want you guys to finish my room. I understand if you can't move the machines, though i get the feeling you never looked to see if you could. But i would really appreciate a room that i could decorate. it WOULD have been nice if you had done that BEFORE you started painting other rooms. but i feel like you don't think of me as any where near as important as the boys just because i'm rarely here. and it's not my fault. I never asked for it. but i now just wish for you to finish it before it's too late to bother and i'll be leaving. and maybe that's why you aren't trying, but i really just want a room with real walls and a real ceiling. is that too much to ask? especially since if my mom knew about the situation she'd be so pissed she'd keep me away? and you know it's true. But lately i haven't felt welcome here, so maybe that would be good. I don't know. I just thought you needed to know this, because it's bugging me and might affect me coming up. If i don't feel welcome, why should i bother? if i dont have a place i can go to to be alone when the boys are bothering me, why should i think i can this my home?"

Now, i know you guys are all going to point out something. and here's the thing. i am leaving that. i merely want opinions and to ask if it's any nicer but more....substantial and mature than the first. doesnt have to be a lot more, but personally i feel it is. so please tell me what you think about them, especially the second.

Alright. I am forgoing most maturity and respect. I want this note cold, because that is how i feel. The old toy thing is mentioned, but here's how i mean it: you know when you have a toy that you used to love, but now just like? so you put it in the most convenient place you can? that's how i feel. So this is my way saying i have had enough. is it cold enough? yet still saying i haven't given up completely? thanks:

"I am leaving this note because i cannot say this without something impeding what i am trying to say. But the fact that you are painting bob's room is total Bull S***. Let me tell you why. First off, that was MY room. MINE! You promised me it. But just because bob and luke fight all the time, they couldn't share a room. They STILL FIGHT. It has done nothing. And Bob rarely uses it anyway! But whatever. I accepted that. Then you said you would try and turn the laundry room into a bedroom for me. Still in the basement. I said okay! But you didn't start working on it. Instead, you had to replace windows. and i get that. that was important and makes sense. but you said you were going to replace mine and didn't. And now you painted the kitchen the basement living room, and are working on bob's room, yet you have DONE NOTHING for mine. You promised and haven't. That hurts. I come here and feel like a toy put into the most convenient spot. i don't feel like your daughter. I feel like a forced burden. So, until there is some changes, i will not be speaking unless necessary. And if luke is a brat to me. i will yell at him. I will yell at anyone who is a brat. or an @ss. I'm sick of feeling horrible when i come here and yet you say you miss me. So you need to work on things. I figure by the time i get a "room" i'll be moving out. That is unless you're willing to make some changes. Don't call about it either, because when we talk my mom will ask questions and i won't lie. and then she wouldn't let me come up. If i don't get any respect no one else does either. it's only fair."

Alright. I am forgoing most maturity and respect. I want this note cold, because that is how i feel. The old toy thing is mentioned, but here's how i mean it: you know when you have a toy that you used to love, but now just like? so you put it in the most convenient place you can? that's how i feel. So this is my way saying i have had enough. is it cold enough? yet still saying i haven't given up completely? thanks:

"I am leaving this note because i cannot say this without something impeding what i am trying to say. But the fact that you are painting bob's room is total Bull S***. Let me tell you why. First off, that was MY room. MINE! You promised me it. But just because bob and luke fight all the time, they couldn't share a room. They STILL FIGHT. It has done nothing. And Bob rarely uses it anyway! But whatever. I accepted that. Then you said you would try and turn the laundry room into a bedroom for me. Still in the basement. I said okay! But you didn't start working on it. Instead, you had to replace windows. and i get that. that was important and makes sense. but you said you were going to replace mine and didn't. And now you painted the kitchen the basement living room, and are working on bob's room, yet you have DONE NOTHING for mine. You promised and haven't. That hurts. I come here and feel like a toy put into the most convenient spot. i don't feel like your daughter. I feel like a forced burden. So, until there is some changes, i will not be speaking unless necessary. And if luke is a brat to me. i will yell at him. I will yell at anyone who is a brat. or an @ss. I'm sick of feeling horrible when i come here and yet you say you miss me. So you need to work on things. I figure by the time i get a "room" i'll be moving out. That is unless you're willing to make some changes. Don't call about it either, because when we talk my mom will ask questions and i won't lie. and then she wouldn't let me come up. If i don't get any respect no one else does either. it's only fair."

Alright. I am forgoing most maturity and respect. I want this note cold, because that is how i feel. The old toy thing is mentioned, but here's how i mean it: you know when you have a toy that you used to love, but now just like? so you put it in the most convenient place you can? that's how i feel. So this is my way saying i have had enough. is it cold enough? yet still saying i haven't given up completely? thanks:

"I am leaving this note because i cannot say this without something impeding what i am trying to say. But the fact that you are painting bob's room is total Bull S***. Let me tell you why. First off, that was MY room. MINE! You promised me it. But just because bob and luke fight all the time, they couldn't share a room. They STILL FIGHT. It has done nothing. And Bob rarely uses it anyway! But whatever. I accepted that. Then you said you would try and turn the laundry room into a bedroom for me. Still in the basement. I said okay! But you didn't start working on it. Instead, you had to replace windows. and i get that. that was important and makes sense. but you said you were going to replace mine and didn't. And now you painted the kitchen the basement living room, and are working on bob's room, yet you have DONE NOTHING for mine. You promised and haven't. That hurts. I come here and feel like a toy put into the most convenient spot. i don't feel like your daughter. I feel like a forced burden. So, until there is some changes, i will not be speaking unless necessary. And if luke is a brat to me. i will yell at him. I will yell at anyone who is a brat. or an @ss. I'm sick of feeling horrible when i come here and yet you say you miss me. So you need to work on things. I figure by the time i get a "room" i'll be moving out. That is unless you're willing to make some changes. Don't call about it either, because when we talk my mom will ask questions and i won't lie. and then she wouldn't let me come up. If i don't get any respect no one else does either. it's only fair."

Is this a good way to tell my family i'm pissed about my room and living arrangements when i am at my dad's. Face to face confrontaionis not my strong point. in fact it's almost phsyically impossible for me. so this is the note i'm planning on leaving. questinos are 1) What is good or bad? 2) What needs to be changed 3) What would you do?

I am leaving this note because i cannot say this without something impeding what i am trying to say. But the fact that you are painting bob's room is total Bull S***. Let me tell you why. First off, that was MY room. MINE! You promised me it. But just because bob and luke fight all the time, they couldn't share a room. They STILL FIGHT. It has done nothing. And Bob rarely uses it anyway! But whatever. I accepted that. Then you said you would try and turn the laundry room into a bedroom for me. Still in the basement. I said okay! But you didn't start working on it. Instead, you had to replace windows. and i get that. that was important and makes sense. but you said you were going to replace mine and didn't. And now you painted the kitchen the basement living room, and are working on bob's room, yet you have DONE NOTHING for mine. You promised and haven't. That hurts. I come here and feel like a toy put into the most convenient spot. i don't feel like your daughter. I feel like a forced burden. So, until there is some changes, i will not be speaking unless necessary. And if luke is a brat to me. i will yell at him. I will yell at anyone who is a brat. or an @ss. I'm sick of feeling horrible when i come here and yet you say you miss me. So you need to work on things. I figure by the time i get a "room" i'll be moving out. That is unless you're willing to make some changes. Don't call about it either, because when we talk my mom will ask questions and i won't lie. and then she wouldn't let me come up. If i don't get any respect no one else does either. it's only fair."

Ok. First, I am writing this. I plan on writing this note for dad and them to find. NOT RUNNING AWAY. I live with my mom, and go up to my dad's. So this is the note: (all names in this are fake)

"I am leaving this note because i cannot say this without something impeding what i am trying to say. But the fact that you are painting bob's room is total Bull S***. Let me tell you why. First off, that was MY room. MINE! You promised me it. But just because bob and luke fight all the time, they couldn't share a room. They STILL FIGHT. It has done nothing. And Bob rarely uses it anyway! But whatever. I accepted that. Then you said you would try and turn the laundry room into a bedroom for me. Still in the basement. I said okay! But you didn't start working on it. Instead, you had to replace windows. and i get that. that was important and makes sense. but you said you were going to replace mine and didn't. And now you painted the kitchen the basement living room, and are working on bob's room, yet you have DONE NOTHING for mine. You promised and haven't. That hurts. I come here and feel like a toy put into the most convenient spot. i don't feel like your daughter. I feel like a forced burden. So, until there is some changes, i will not be speaking unless necessary. And if luke is a brat to me. i will yell at him. I will yell at anyone who is a brat. or an @ss. I'm sick of feeling horrible when i come here and yet you say you miss me. So you need to work on things. I figure by the time i get a "room" i'll be moving out. That is unless you're willing to make some changes. Don't call about it either, because when we talk my mom will ask questions and i won't lie. and then she wouldn't let me come up. If i don't get any respect no one else does either. it's only fair."

Alright. that's the note. Now here's why i am leaving it. I have two homes. Mom's and dad's. I don't particularly like either, but hey, what can i do. The point is that they broke a promise to me, and aren't keeping the second. My room at my dad's is a bed, two walls with some sheets hanging, a bed and the laundry stuff as well as my stuff and some misc. I used to have a room, but my younger brothers that shared fought. so my dad and step mom decided they cant share. The truth is, they can't be on the same planet. they find everything to fight over. plain and simple. so that defense is useless. But they said they would finish the laundry room. and that was when the weather was really warm. but no. windows came first before the cold, and now there is no talk of fixing my "room" which isn't any bigger than the closet in my dad's room at our old apartment. I think that if they want to see me or speak to me at all, they should have more respect for me. But i am the toy being tossed where ever works most. So what i'm asking is:

1) How is the note? what should i add or take away?

2) What would you do in this situation?

Also, please don't tell me not to leave a note and say it to their faces. I can't I physically can't. I really appreciate answers. Thanks.