Poofy

Can you tell me what's wrong and how to fix it? This year, I had no Christmas wish list and it kinda bothers me, bc I always have one as a fantasy mainly. The problem isn't coming up w the list, it's the fact that when I think about it it doesn't really make me happy, which It should. It would actually stress me out if i were to receive gifts. Like every time I try to fantasize about buying all of Sephora I think about college and just my financial situation and it makes me wonder why I buy anything at all. I honestly just feel like i don't deserve anything and it's bothering me bc that's a horrible mindset but I can't do anything about it. Like I can't enjoy Christmas. I wanna go back to my superficial ho self who was oblivious to everything. If you know why I feel like this or the cure, please tell me.

(Asking for someone else) It's really hard for me to do a pushup, and I need to be able to do 11 Push-ups in one minute. Is it better to begin with girl pushups, or wall pushups?

I asked my parents when I'm allowed to date and they said "we don't date in our culture" I understand that I shouldn't date at a young age but I feel like it's taking away my freedom what do you think?