Ari

What is life? Lol

Im in my first day of university, walking on the campus I feel a very uncomfotable, like a..self concious? The reason being alot of americans have been staring at me like I have a third eye. Seriously it is very strange. Two have tried to say hi to me and I dont know them. My roommate said in america strangers greet eachother and can actually become friends and talk to each other. In my country it is very very strange to talk to a stranger you dont know and have conversation. I think I need to a just.

But why do they stare? Is that another American thing that is normal here?

Would you prefer a girl who doesnt do anything or a tease?

The AC is broken? Im already just wearing a bra and shorts. Im still hot, so I cant sleep. How can I cool down? :(

TRUST me this professor really deserves whats coming to her. Shes the head of the chemisty department and on a major powertrip. She is completely heartless and made many student cry this semester and grades very harshly and unfairly. Its like she gets some kind of sick enjoyment out of making students lives miserable and more difficult.

I usually never have a problem with professors and get along just find but this one is seriously the professor from hell.

She basically failed me as well for turning in a 100 point page paper at 12.01am instead of 12.00am and gave me a 0. That resulted from my grade dropping from an A to and automatic F. Because the other assignments were worth 10 points, and this was worth a lot. Ive gotten all 100%'s on all the assingments, accept the first I got a 95%. I understand the class material and worked very hard all semester and am even paying for the class, thousands of dollars out of pocket, which she knows about. I was sick and had extenuating circumstances for why my paper was late. But she flat out said in the fakest way "sorry, but i cant help you"

She is literally so evil. My TA felt so bad and wanted to grade my paper but couldnt :(

ugh, how can I get back at this lady! not just for me but for all the students!! I seriously cant let this go.

Im 20 and in college. Im really busy, almost all the time. So I just wanted someone I could occasionally make love with, have meaningful good conversation and just unwind with when I could. Without all the extra little things that come with a full on committed relationship. Is that too much to ask?

I thought guys, especially my age, like that. But no.

Seriously.

Can I say it was for research purposes? Lmao

Just kidding. I know it was wrong. It was a one time thing and I took a very low dose. Just trying to finish up a paper for chemistry lab. I found it really did nothing for me. My friend said this is because Im already a focused person naturally. Im not sure.

Anyway at least I wont be like this doctor. And he went to John Hopkins XD

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/02/27/dr-nikita...

Basically im the biggest idiot to have walked this earth. I dont know what happened to me but I feel like all my motivation and my ability to stay focus went out of the window since i came to college. I dont know why. And i was just getting worse and worse. I was a very good student in highschool, and got accepted to a nice university on a scholarship. And I made some stupid mistakes and lost of that. What I cared about the most for myself.

I did things that were against academic policy and for that not only did my grades and GPA drop to the ground but I also was suspended from my university.

Im going into my junior year now, with a GPA on the group and suspension on my record. I feel like I completely ruined my life and my goal of medical school and becoming a doctor is completely out the window in the stage of the game.

I dont even know where to take classes. Am i completely hopeless?

I noticed that other people around me usually seem happier, having more energy and just "Lighter" then I feel. Sometimes its hard for me to get motivated to do work and i just feel really lazy and a bit down for no reason. Almost pessimistic or irritated. And today I had a headache and asked my aunt for some painkillers. She gave me one, and after an hr i noticed my headache did not decrease so I wondered if I needed to take another one and asked my aunt on the dosage of the painkiller. She looked at the bottle and realized she gave me her sons prescription of ADHD medication: Ritalin. I kind of freaked out, but she assured me that nothing should happen.

But before she told me that I took this, I noticed that I felt in a much better mood. Like happier for no reason and not so tired. I have a chemistry exam tomorrow so im studying today and I noticed it wasnt as hard to study. I wasnt intense focused or full of energy or gitty like some people make ADHD drugs out to be, but I definitely noticed I felt better over all. Kind of how I see other people around me feel.

Why is that? Should I be on this medication or just ignore this? I really dont like the idea of me taking prescription drugs though, especially psychosis altering drugs on the brain. What should I do about this? I want to talk to a doctor but I dont want my family to really know about this. Im 20, but on my moms insurance as well.

I noticed that other people around me usually seem happier, having more energy and just "Lighter" then I feel. Sometimes its hard for me to get motivated to do work and i just feel really lazy and a bit down for no reason. Almost pessimistic or irritated. And today I had a headache and asked my aunt for some painkillers. She gave me one, and after an hr i noticed my headache did not decrease so I wondered if I needed to take another one and asked my aunt on the dosage of the painkiller. She looked at the bottle and realized she gave me her sons prescription of ADHD medication: Ritalin. I kind of freaked out, but she assured me that nothing should happen.

But before she told me that I took this, I noticed that I felt in a much better mood. Like happier for no reason and not so tired. I have a chemistry exam tomorrow so im studying today and I noticed it wasnt as hard to study. I wasnt intense focused or full of energy or gitty like some people make ADHD drugs out to be, but I definitely noticed I felt better over all. Kind of how I see other people around me feel.

Why is that? Should I be on this medication or just ignore this? I really dont like the idea of me taking prescription drugs though, especially psychosis altering drugs on the brain. What should I do about this? I want to talk to a doctor but I dont want my family to really know about this. Im 20, but on my moms insurance as well.

Im going to be honest. This past semester I have done dishonest things and tried to cut a lot of corners. I was taking care of a family member with a terminal illness and that weighed heavily on my time and energy. Its not an excuse but its a factor that lead to my behavior. I already go one strike during the fall for plagiarizing a math homework assignment and was on probation (which i wasnt aware. I thought I had a warning). and now this semester i did a lot of little things at the end of the semester (again trying to cut corners) and all of it completely backfired on me. Now im in some very hot water and could likely face a yr of suspension or even expulsion. I expressed that this consequence seemed very extreme to me and the academic integrity office ladies asked what I think would be a suitable punishment in this case. I would rather take anything over suspension and expulsion. I learned my lesson and am ready to work very hard like I used to.

They think im very smart and have been using this to manipulate my professors and people around me. Im not manipulative, im a good person.

How can I convince them that in my case suspension would not be an appropriate or beneficial consequence, and instead what would be?

I was thinking of asking if I could do community service or mentor younger students facing similar academic challenges since I had been through it. Or offer to take an academic integrity (behavioral) seminar? Any other ideas or elaborations?

Im going to be honest. This past semester I have done dishonest things and tried to cut a lot of corners. I was taking care of a family member with a terminal illness and that weighed heavily on my time and energy. Its not an excuse but its a factor that lead to my behavior. I already go one strike during the fall for plagiarizing a math homework assignment and was on probation (which i wasnt aware. I thought I had a warning). and now this semester i did a lot of little things at the end of the semester (again trying to cut corners) and all of it completely backfired on me. Now im in some very hot water and could likely face a yr of suspension or even expulsion. I expressed that this consequence seemed very extreme to me and the academic integrity office ladies asked what I think would be a suitable punishment in this case. I would rather take anything over suspension and expulsion. I learned my lesson and am ready to work very hard like I used to.

They think im very smart and have been using this to manipulate my professors and people around me. Im not manipulative, im a good person.

How can I convince them that in my case suspension would not be an appropriate or beneficial consequence, and instead what would be?

I was thinking of asking if I could do community service or mentor younger students facing similar academic challenges since I had been through it. Or offer to take an academic integrity (behavioral) seminar? Any other ideas or elaborations?

I feel that I am coming across many large obstacles, one now that im afraid is beyond what I can handle. I ask you please PLEASE made dua for me.

Jazakullah Khair

I smiled today when i got to big sister figure to a young insecure girl and making them feel confident and helping her realize shes beautiful! I guess that because Im 19 and I just remembered when i was at her age (14) and how i felt the same way. SO passing along what it took me this long to realize makes me smile seeing they see it too :)

Mine is probably black magic. That s***t is very real and very scary.

Ps:there is no white magic or an opposite to it.

Theres only black magic, not that glitter and rainbow stuff and nothings good about it. There its very evil and does horrible things to people. Glad not many know about it. Because I can say stuff like this and just sound like im crazy or just trolling hahaha....

Oh my god...imagine if people like Hitler had black magic.....that wouldve been a mess...but then again maybe he did. Maybe thats how he got so far with is psycho agenda. Whatever.