blue eyed devil

im due to have some blood tests done to determine if i have inflammation in my system. i think to rule out arthritis of some sort. but now i have a sore throat and possibly a cold coming would this not interfere with the end results? or am i best to wait until the cold clears up? as a cold and sore throat produces imflammation dosent it?

ok ive been diagnosed with rapid cycle bi polar with ocd and ptsd. my fiancee has just left me. I'm on sertraline, lithium and olazapine. i was so upset i went out with what i thought was a close trusted friend, we went out for a drink, i had to much(my fault i know). when we got home he took advantage, i didn't want this! he told me in the morning he was not careful, i went and got the emergency contraceptive pill, i feel so dirty and used. cant understand why he would do this when he knows how fragile i am. now I'm really worried i feel so ill don't know if my meds are reacting and cant get my head around this....... can you put my mind at rest.... could i still get preg even with the meds? why did he do this..... I'm such a mess!

You taught me how to smile, how to live life once again,

I really found my true love, never the same again.

You taught me how to laugh, the sound it was so sweet,

The love we ooze a sure sign, something no-one could defeat.

Our plans we made, our life we built, as solid as could be,

Everything was so perfect, when you were here with me.

My butterflies in my stomach every time we met,

Not one minute of our time, then, do I ever have regret.

We were getting married, hopefully a baby on the way,

So sure was I, then, that your love was here to stay.

Everything was so perfect, I couldn’t believe my luck,

So true to Julie fashion, I was sure to come unstuck.

Then

My smile faded, I lost the will to live once more,

My true love does not want me, an I’ve been shown the door.

My laughter a distant memory, will only haunt him in his sleep,

The love we oozed all gone now, no longer will it seep.

Our happy life the cherished memories we shared,

Etched in my mind, never knowing if you really cared.

The butterflies have turned to knives now, cutting me to shreds,

The certainty of knowing, you will cut the final threads.

Because the future you held with such tender hands,

Your letting, slipping, like the hour glass sands.

The flash of the razor across her skin,

It is a vice or a deadly sin.

To make things better, to kill her pain,

let blood flow feely, just like the rain.

Her blood may fall, and form a puddle,

But inside her head, its still a muddle.

Deep in her veins her emotions boil,

She cant make sense of all the turmoil.

On-one can truly understand,

The pain which marks so, with her loving hand.

The mess around her, all built up in her head,

Forgets the loving family, and she wishes her dead.

But when the pain it leaves her, and it all disappears,

It’s the scars under her clothes, the reactions she fears.

She wishes she could stop, put an end to the harm,

But when things get to much, the blade makes her calm.

i take lithium at 1000mg olanzapine at 50mg and sertaline have taken the lithium for nearly 1 1/2yrs now..... my doctor didnt say when he put me on olanzapine to do any different............. when my mum went to put up a new prescripton the pharmasist told her i should take the lithium and the olazapine 2hours apart cause they counteract each other and make the lithium stronger..... is this right? why didnt my doctor tell me this?

im thinking of buying one its the rotary engine 231ps with the sports styling pack on. can any1 who has one tell me what they are like???/ am i doing the right thing?!

ive been really down lately and i self harm badly(not for attention). been trying to get therapy and they never get me past the inital consultation stage. im on lithium and sertline but im not sure its helping, been to hopsital twice this week to get patched up.going docs on mon gonna kick ***. my therapist on wed told me she cant help me yet an signed me off. i nearly got admitted to psych ward kinda wish i had as not to keep getting messed around. any helpful advise (non triggering please) also 1min i have bipolar and the next it BPD can some1 who has been here help PLEASE

now i have come to upgarde again because my hand set is broken, im on a 18month contract because i changedmy tafiff an was not informed!? they now want to recalculate my bills for the last year and i have to pay the diff. how can this be so when i never agreed to the 18month contract.they have no proof and i have the documents stating 12months. ive been citizen advise but orange is ot listening to me please help

and has any ever worked im really keen to loose these scars