Giz

I have been with my current SO for abt 2 years. I am 26 he is 37. He has a bad history with emotional abuse by step family and a loooong drug history. He has gotten himself together in the past 4 years and is clean, works a decent job, earns well, and is very nice to me. Never violent nor accusing. Yesterday his step mom told me there were issues when he was 23 and on drugs (not sure which one) and his 2 half brothers aged around 10ish at the time told their father that he had touched them.

My SO's mother had 6 kids with 4 diff men, left all the kids as babies with the dad, and did the same with the next bf. He doesn't talk about his childhood ever, and is a fairly hard person who claims to have dealt with all his life's happenings. I know nothing of his past. He wants to get married this year and start a family. I cant ask him about the accusations he will def deny it. He is on good terms with the brothers and I know all of them. they hang out and same to have no issues.

I was molested as a kid. I don't know what the hell to do. Guys, please give me some male opinions on this as to WHY u guys do it and what the hell I should do.

Im losing my mind, and I don't even want him looking at me.

PLEASE PLEASE please help me. I can't tell my parents as I come from a very very stable background parent wise, and just had the molestation issue as a kid with a cousin, which was treated with therapy immediately after I told.