Noah

I don't need to get up for anything for the next few days. And I'm super tired now.

I have anxiety, so leaving is very hard to do on my own. My friends can't come help me now, and I've run out of food, so I have to get out of here soon.

I love small, round birds and I want to learn more about them.

I know I have several maladaptive thought patterns going on, I am mentally ill and I am aware of it. But no matter what, I can't stop thinking and feeling that no one in my life actually wants anything to do with me, and that they just keep me around out of a sense of duty or pity.

I've requested someone else several times, but most of them are on holiday, and therapy can't wait, so I'm stuck with him the whole summer.

As a kid I didn't feel like a boy or a girl but didn't understand what that meant and was always super uncomfortable with my body. At 16 I first heard the term nonbinary, and later once I fully understood what it meant, I knew that's what I'd been experiencing all my life.

Why do others insist they know it's a phase or made up when they've never been through it?

And if it is made up or a phase why is it so strong and why has it been going on for so long?

I've been depressed for about eleven years now, since I was twelve. I go to therapy and take my medicine, and have done so for a couple of years, but I'm still so depressed and suicidal. Can't help but wonder if I'm too far gone

Honestly though, he's an ok dude, but I don't feel like he's really helping me anymore, and we don't really understand each other. I've tried for about a year to make it work, but it's become clear that we are a bad match.

How can I ask to start seeing someone else without undermining his methods or whatever?

Are there any foods that taste better at body temperature? I imagine that people who are without ovens or campfires might want to enjoy warm food sometimes, would body heat do?