Plumed_Serpent

We broke up one and a half yr ago. To tell the truth, I dumped her...without any reason. reckless human behaviour you may say. It was just like killing the albatross. She was hurt. It was her first affair. With passage of time we became close friends. Again shared all the intimacy. Dating without giving it any name. Though we scarcely met.we were happy... loyal as well. But certainly not committed. Then about two weeks ago she dropped the bomb! She is getting married this winter. I never intended to marry her. But now Im devastated. I know shes gonna be happy though she misses me a lot. And I just cant handle this. Its way too much. Cant sleep. cant eat. Shes in my mind all the time. Im a human wreck. It seems my best friend is taken away from me. Wud never be able to kiss her. cant hug her the same way. No more late night long phone calls. No innuendos. Its all gone. My soul is taken away.