the capybara

how long will it take to get back to the way i was...im so foolish i know...i forgot how bad it feels to be this low..i dont know what to do?

i want to die everyday

especially my parents...and im annoyed by everything and hypersensitive to peoples sounds and what they say...can medication help these awful feelings?

i also have social anxiety and no self belief...i dont know where to turn...ive been like this for 13 years...medication hasnt really helped much at all to be honest...just masks the problem..

.ive been off medication for a couple of weeks now as they werent helping but now i feel even worse...i dont know where to turn...i wouldnt wish these feelings on my worst enemy...it really is the pits

im not sure what to do..my depression and anxiety is spiraling out of control.

ive tried lots of anti Ds over the last 10 years...i recently withdrew from Venlafaxine a few weeks ago so am now without medication...apart from xanax most days when i need it

..venlafaxine and wellbutrin helped me for 2 yrs then it stopped working after i took some mdma when i was drunk...

my self esteem is rock bottom..in my mind i cant do anything, i am inferior to everyone and everyone is normal apart from me.

.should i try ECT or hypnotherapy? im tired of trying anti ds..they arent a cure and i dont like being on them..i feel close to suicide at the moment

my depression and anxiety is spiralling out of control

ie like scraping nails on the blackboard...my Dads noises are really getting on my nerves,,,how can i stop being so sensitive and annoyed by such banal things...any tips?

and dont have any physical symptoms, i dont feel anxious or depressed just really short tempered, ultra sensitive and annoyed by people and sounds, want to punch a wall, close to flipping out 24/7...im taking xanax to control my temper and annoyance...also i quit smoking a month ago too so my body is going through changes...help me pls!!

smoking was 3 weeks ago, anti depressants 5 days ago...i feel like my brain doesnt work properly but how long do i need to wait?

i just had one and it was so terrifying i cannot put it into words.

i dont know where to turn..im in a dark place at the moment. ive had depression for a decade and been on various antidepressants which have helped a bit but they have stopped working and the past 2 months i have got more and more depressed to the stage where i spend most my time in bed and have no motivation or interest in anything. i dont want to live like this. my self esteem is so low now and i dont know what to do. suicide is not the answer..i just want to be happy, believe in myself and live a normal life...why is this not possible? whats wrong with me? ive been dealt an awful hand.