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i dont want to go to a salon because its like 100 dollars i dont have..

so i bought a box by garnie frutis called "light golden brown"

my hairstylist said that it will dye the top of my hair but the bottom which has color that has grown out will not take the color? how does that make sense... im just worried about my hair turning orange or being like 5 different colors. any tips ? i dont want to bleach because im not trying to damage my hair anymore...just bored with dark hair lol

i am debating about buying a condo seeing as it would be much cheaper than an apartment in the long run but i have several questions about it if i do.

1. what would my average cost be for water/heat/electric ?

and

2. what happens if i decide to move 10 years down the line ?

like i want a house one day to have a family in and so on.

do i get money back when i sell it ?

how does that work exactly lol

im just really curious because i was going to get an apartment but i was told not to waste my money on that because no matter what, you will always have that $400 + a month bill. this way with a condo, i can either buy it out up front. or rent to own.

i have time, im just new at this.

this is my first car, and i love it! it drives so smooth and ive had it a little over a month now. its a nice little car. im just freaking out because i know like nothing about cars. the service engine soon light just came on when i started the car yesterday. maybe it just needs a oil change? ill have my bf check that later. but im worried:( i spent like all my money into buying this car and i cant afford to have it die on me:/ please give me good news?

no i am not a virgin.

and no this is not the first time i have been fingered.

he was trying to make me squirt and he got really carried away with it.

when he pulled out his fingers were covered in blood.

he forgot to trim his fingernails.

but it stopped bleeding.

then two days later i got wet while giving him head and started bleeding again!

i know its not my period because i still have another week on my birth control before i usually start my period.... i have no insurance so i DEFINITELY can NOT afford to go to the doctor. but im really worried right now to what the hell could be wrong with me :/ and if i will be okay if this goes untreated... please give me your advice as soon as possible. thank you!

and i was wondering if i could possibly tattoo over them? i have no clue how i could possibly get rid of these hideous things and finally look normal. i was run over by a semi truck, i know i know, why am i alive? doctors question it too. I JUST WANT THIS TO BE GONE, i dont wanna wear a wedding dress one day and my back look gross like now. i feel self conscious in a bathing suit because i feel everyone is starring at my scars.. i hate this :/

here's a picture, not really good quality...but i got these all over my right shoulder...

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i suck at any kind of tests. i practiced my driving for like a couple months and was perfect practicing the cone test. then i took the test today and my hands were shaking and i was so nervous! i didnt even sleep last night, what will help calm me down? i freak out on any kind of test... even ones at school.. but the driving test has been the worst test yet...im almost 20, i need to pass!

i moved out of my house like 2 months ago, im happy. I live with my boyfriend and his family. Everything is great! including school, and im finally taking my driving test tomorrow(im almost 20, and my mom never had time to teach me) but im getting threats from her friends. Telling me how much of a horrible person i am and such. I want her out of my life forever, is that asking too much? Im done fighting. Im tired of it. My life is good now, when will she take a hint and stop.

It bothers me that i have to always see her face. it bothers me more that his mom says hi to her every time she sees her...should this? i know it shouldn't because I'm dating him. and he doesn't even like his ex anymore, am i being a baby? he doesn't find it awkward that his mom does this because he says she just says hi, and he never talks to her. he doesn't care about her; I'm his world. why does this bother me so much? i really don't like her being dangled in my face so much. why cant she just quit and leave us alone:(

like i just started my period yesterday...

and this was this morning..

it purple with a tail and had some blood on it.

im confused >.<

im 19 years old, im 5foot8 and the only time i was ever considered thin was when i was 5.

im 208, ive dated thinner guys my entire life...its depressing at times because my boyfriend can eat whatever the hell he wants, doesnt matter...hes 6foot3, 160. I wanna be able to do things with him that he wants, stuff i wont mention:P and i want him to be able to pick me up on our wedding day, carry me like a baby out to our car haha, i watch too many romantic movies lol but this really isnt a joking matter, i want this so bad.. i have a problem, i eat when im bored, i eat when im sad&depressed...I need to loose this weight, everytime i find someone who doesnt like me online or whereever, there first insult is something about my weight! im sick of it, i want this gross **** off my body!!! helllllllllllllppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!!!!

i just got kicked outta my house...so my boyfriend is teaching me how to drive; he is 18

im 19, but i have no one else to teach me to drive! family is outta the question cuz i never see them.

i need to get my license soon! this is ridiculous!! so is this okay? i mean if i have no one else? or will i get in severe trouble???

so my boyfriend is teaching me to drive..

but hes only 18, but he still has his official ohio drivers license..

is that okay? or could we get in serious trouble?

i really want to learn to drive, but i have no one to teach me besides him :/

im kinda stumped on what to get my boyfriend for Christmas, but then i was thinking...we've been dating over 8 months now...we live together, and around Christmas it will be very very close to our one year.. but ive had bad luck with a promise ring before. my ex got me one before i moved away(was only supposed to be gone six months) but after the third day of being gone, he dumped me for another girl. i really love my boyfriend, and i know i want to spend the rest of my life with him. I just feel like the promise ring jinxed my other relationship...good idea? or should i think of something else..

like its over the most retarded things....like i get sad that hes always playing the PSP i bought him instead of paying attention to me...he claims he is that he can do both, but i just want one on one time, will we eventually settle down and work with each others schedules, or will it always be a argument? he claims itll get better...i hope so:/ by the way we have only been living together two weeks this Saturday.

im trying to move out, and neither me or my boyfriend have credit cards...i only have a debit

do all apartments require a credit card?

if so, can we have a co signer that has credit?

how does this work....

My aunt(adopted mother) treats me like her slave, im always doing/cleaning/buying her things. If i want to go out with my boyfriend i have to clean for her or when we do go out we have to stop at the store and buy her some things first...when will it be my time? is she going to be like this forever? its been 10+ years of the same old thing and it just seems to be getting worse everyday. Ive tried talking to her about it but it just ends in a yelling fight and me crying. Me and my boyfriend of almost 8 months are madly in love, he takes care of me more than my aunt(adopted mother)...like she wouldn't take me to get my temps(i know im 19 and should already have them but that's another long story and we moved states so i have to start all over) so he took me for that, and she said he could take me to the dentist shell just give me the money. I mean what is this? She always threatens to kick me out if i don't do something she wants or if i don't want to do it the way she wants.. i don't understand, I'm 19.....shouldn't she be letting go and not holding tighter?? My boyfriend wants to help me out, hes only 18 but were both starting college this fall, at the same school and hes getting tired of his parents too. So we want to wait a lil bit for things with college to settle down and for our lives to get on track with school and work and stuff. So maybe like a month, but hopefully sooner..i seriously cant stand living at home anymore. my aunt(mom) always complains how im never home, but she doesn't realize its her making me never want to be home! when i do hang out with my boyfriend, he never wants to come to my house because the couple times he did she made him do handy man things(he took a carpentry class in high school). Ive always been afraid she was going to scare him away from me like my last boyfriends, but this one doesnt care about her, just me. I think moving in with him will take all the stress i have living at home off and make it easier to focus on stuff that really matters, my education. He is very supportive in everything i do, when my aunt(mom) doubts me in something, hes right there telling me i can do it. Am i doing the right thing? I don't want to seem like a ***** and just leave, but i feel as tho i have no choice anymore.. i go to bed crying almost every night because of the hurtful things she says. Am i being over dramatic? or is enough, enough??

and will they go away if i keep shaving down there?

this is like the third time this year ive had a uti, and ive had like 3 yeast infections too! im confused to why this keeps happening to me :/

and like i put pressure on the area where my ovaries are in my body and that seems to loosen the pain...but its not me being constipated...cuz i can use the bathroom just fine...just when im on my period its like the cramps build up times 10! it hurts like down where my ovaries are, is this normal?

for it to hurt sooo much when you poop while on your period?

i usually just grab the area where my ovaries are so the pain loosens.

it it normal?