Eleanor

Recently I’ve met this guy on a dating app during lockdown. We’ve been together 8months and off and on but I felt unsure about him. I love him so much but unfortunately he smokes weed and his friend is a drug dealer and his mum is disabled because he ex partner abused her and run her over and his mum let his friend sell drugs in their house and smoke it in the house and the house smells of weed which is disgusting. I found his mum a bit order believing in magic and his mum thinks their cat got possess by her dead husband. Also on his friend does cocain and one of his friend doesn’t work and smokes weed all the time. Also I’m not happy that he is been liking his girl friends pictures on instragam and some of the pictures are revealing with cleavage showing which I’m not happy but I’m fine that are clothed and friends but I got jealous and paranoia. His ex girlfriend got him in debt getting a credit card behind his back and did cocain and slept with husband of men. Also on Facebook he hide his friends on Facebook and when there is family birthday with my family he can’t come because he is working. He is a manager at a cafe which is a good stable job but he wants to look for another job. He wants to run his own business and I want to run my own business too which I’m currently taking it off and looking for work during this difficult time. I love him but I don’t feel my family improve his up bringing where I was raised up from right and wrong and middle working class up bringing.

Recently I’ve talking to this guy at work. I’ve gave him my number and I ask to do alterations for him because I’m seamstress part time and I said to him we could meet up just me and you. However he told me he is seeing someone else which I was annoyed about that. Does it means he is a relationship or seeing someone casually. However he kept starting at me. Smiling at me and also when I first met him he shake his hand. I really like him he is really attractive. He is 26 and doing a master degree but should I just be friends with him? Shall I do alterations for his clothes?

Recently over these past few weeks I haven’t been getting enough sleep. I use meditation and sleep pills but that doesn’t seem to work. I’ve been citalopram antidepressant to help my anxiety and depression. I’ve been on them since October or November. I took them off for a while I know I shouldn’t but ever since I took them off my sleep pattern has got worse. I’ve been going to bed round about 1 and get up at 5 which is terrible and some nights I don’t sleep. I also use lavender spray just to get some sleep but that doesn’t work. However last night I took my citalopram I took 2 and I took about 4 sleep pills. I know I shouldn’t but i’m desperate to sleep my back aches and my legs shake and I feel like a zombie. When I go to work I don’t feel motivated. However last night I try to go to bed at 7 o’clock but I couldn’t sleep instead I went to bed at 1 again and woke up today at 5 but i’ve been trying to go to bed but my back aches like hell and everyone was so noisy in my household. I’ve phoned up the doctors to explain the problem and he told me you haven’t take your pills. So I took my 2 antidepressant pills yesterday and 4 sleep pills. Which I know I shouldn’t overdose myself but it didn’t work instead I went to bed at 1 and got up at 5. Also i’ve been doing meditation and yoga and exercise but I don’t know what’s wrong with me why I am having this problem. All I want to do is sleep.

I’m currently working at a candle shop and retaking my GCSE’s and I’m doing an online course on dress making and I’m going to sewing lessons and I’m even a seamstress assistant at titchfield theatre making costumes for shows. I’ve even going to set up my alteration business and my Etsy store. I’m still wondering will I pass my dress making course and GCSE’s maths level 1 and will I work for a seamstress company and will I get my vintage business. Also i’m just wondering about my love life because i’ve just been out from a toxic relationship who didn’t had a job and wasn’t supportive. Will I find the right guy who will support me and who is creative. I’m born 25 July 1996 and time 4:37am and numerology is 3 and i’m born on a Thursday.

I’m just wondering will I have my fashion and costume business? I’m currently retaking my GCSE’s maths and English. I’m looking for part time work retail. I’ve got my fashion level 2 distinction and level 3 fashion merit. I’ve done an internship and i’m currently volunteering at titchfield and i’ve set up my alteration business i’ve even set up online course bust I don’t start till 22 October. I’m just wondering if I will pass my GCSE’S and will I get my business. Also i’m Just wondering about my love. I got out in a toxic relationship but he had mental health problems. Will I find love again?

I’ve recently broke up with my ex it was toxic. He didn’t had a job and he watched films. I’m currently volunteering at titchfield costume assistant and i’ve done internship, did fashion and art at college and got A* . I’m currently retaking my GCSE’s but i’ve been looking for a job doing seamstress or retail i’ve about 10 or 11 jobs setted up my own alteration business and Etsy store but nobody hasn’t phoned or wants to sale my stuff even i’ve set up my zazzle page but nobody has bothered to sale my art and fashion work but all the seamstress jobs are too far away and I feel someone needs to give me a chance i’m Currently at the job centre and they are giving me jobs I don’t want will I find a seamstress job and will I get a better boyfriend? I’m also 22 and born 25 July 1996 and the time of my birth is 4:37am

I am 22 I want to know my love life how long i will stay titchfield as a seamstress as volunteering and working there. Also will i get a job at portsmouth as a seamstress and will my ex come back and speak to me. Even though we where in a toxic relationship and i'm just wondering if he has job and has a new girlfriend. Will i get a new boyfriend and does my ex regrets what he has done?

I am 22 I want to know my love life how long i will stay titchfield as a seamstress as volunteering and working there. Also will i get a job at portsmouth as a seamstress and will my ex come back and speak to me. Even though we where in a toxic relationship and i'm just wondering if he has job and has a new girlfriend. Will i get a new boyfriend and does my ex regrets what he has done?

I'm just wondering this placement. I have moon in Scorpio 5th house mercury moon.