willowtree

I like listening to people like The Weeknd, Blackbear, and that sort of thing. Need new music. Please suggest if you know any! Thanks x

I will argue until I'm blue in the face that I'm right in a lot of situations. If not I become almost mean, and I don't like it. It's a trait my dad has that I hate but I don't see why I have it too. But all the trait stuff aside, why do I feel like I always have to be right? I don't understand.

Recently me and my best friend got into an argument and she shared all the things she didn t like that I said or did and put a lot of the blame on me over very small things. I didn t share all of the things that ticked me off about her because I felt there was no point. I passive aggressively told her whatever and brushed it off. But I know that I m going to start to push her away now. The problem is that I m not guilty because of it.

This is what happens every time with people and me. Not just her. Me and her have been best friends for a short time- about 7 months or so. But anyone who has significantly hurt me while I already had negative emotions about them, I push them away and eventually cut them off.

I feel guilty for not being guilty. I don t feel bad for moving on and moving past people (especially since I m currently in a transition in my life right now) and I don t feel bad for moving away in a year (to which I told no one) and leaving everyone behind. Is that a bad thing? I love people and meeting new people but I feel like a terrible person because I DON T feel like a terrible person. Does that makes sense? **** I write a lot, sorry, hahah. But anyways, any feedback would be lovely. Thank you xx

I get extremely attached to anyone whom I consistently talk to but feel they get annoyed by me and I get paranoid and apologize for people annoying which causes them to feel indifferent towards me.

I try my hardest not to get attached to people but I just get so excited when someone new comes into my life and I want to talk to them all the time because I love people.

So to prevent this, I distance myself and push people away from me or act like I don't care. But that usually ends up in me being extremely lonely or bathing in an endless pit of self-hatred. I hate that I feel like a burden all the time. Any tips on how not to get so attached without completely ostracizing myself from everyone everywhere? lol