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I've known this woman for about two months now. I met her on a website of gay and lesbian people. I just moved to Chicago three months and am not interested in trying to get close to any guys. I date women too, so my cousin thought she'd put me on the website so that I could meet new women in the Chicago area back in November. Long story short, this older woman, 28 with a 10yr old daughter starts flirting with me. I give her, Kia, my phone number, thinking we could be friends. I get rid of my web page because I think it's completely useless. So she starts blowing me up to text and talk, day and night. I wasn't interested at first and she told me she only wanted a friend because she was getting her life back together after a really really bad breakup the year before. Her ex-girlfriend had left Kia and her daughter with nothing. Weeks go on and we find ourselves flirting on the phone. We meet. I meet half her family and her daughter the first day. Things get a little hot (kissing, touching, holding each other a few times). So after a while, I find myself starting to fall for her and taking to her daughter. Her daughter seems to like me as well. So we have a few disagreements and I'm seeing her pretty much every day. she's calling me and texting me everyday, calling me at 2 and 3 in the morning because she can't sleep. I make it my mission to be the one she and her daughter can depend on since they can't depend on anyone else. Then Christmas comes and everything changes. For about two weeks, I would see less of her. She stopped calling and texting so much. She wasn't returning me calls, rarely responding to my texts. So we had a big blow up right after New Year's about how I felt she was pushing me away. She says we were never "talking" that way even though she was always touching and flirting with me, saying how much she wants me. It made me so angry because I felt she was using me.

I couldn't understand it. She initiated EVERYTHING with me, then she took it all back. I wanted to forget her, but I would've hated never talking to her or her daughter again. I didn't wanna be like every other ex Kia had who disappeared from her daughter's life. So I decided we would be friends, but I would just move on. So the next time I see Kia, everything's cool, til I tell her about a woman who asked me out on a date. She was kinda jealous. So we had a long talk. Apparently, I we misunderstood each other. She thought that I thought we were already in a relationship or something like that. She admitted she was pushing me away. She said she got scared because I was starting to break through her emotional wall. At the end, I realized I didn't want anyone but her. She told me she only wanted a friend because her life had been destroyed in her last relationship so she had trust issues. I can understand that.

But since the blow up, she doesn't call me anymore. Just texts me a few times a day. She is working now, so I guess I could understand. She still asks me over every now and then, but there's no more touching or kissing, because we were moving too fast.

I guess what I need to know is if I'm crazy for feeling the way I do. I have other women who come to me and I feel I'm ready to work toward a relationship again, but when I really think about it, I only want Kia. I do have feelings for her. My heart wants to wait for her, but I'm scared. I'm not used to waiting or fighting for someone. Then she's so emotionally unavailable to me. She doesn't even talk about how she feels toward me anymore. She just said I have very good potential. She says I've been a good friend. I'm trying to spend time with her and her daughter and let her know she can trust me in time. I don't know though. She just seems so distant now. I told her how I felt and that I wanted to wait for a chance to be with her when she's ready. No pressure. I just want to be there for her and her daughter and be a good friend and when she feels she's ready to have a relationship again, I would be there if she wanted to be with me. But am I crazy for that? If she almost had sex with me when she barely knew me, who says she's not having sex with someone else to occupy her time? What would that say about me, when I only want to wait and give myself to her? I want to wait for her, but I don't want to get my heart broken. Still, it's hard to even try with someone else when I only want her. What should I do?

I wanna buy a basic gift card for $1,000 for a friend. I want something that she can use anywhere for anything.

Today, I attempted to play a video that I downloaded from online on my divx player. I was directed to the library and was shocked to find lists of porn videos. Every other listing was of movies and television shows I'd watched on divx in the last month or so. So I found that the porn videos came from my boyfriend's external hardrive, which he hooked up to my laptop several times before. I asked him about it, and he said he knew nothing about it, that maybe it has a virus. I think he downloaded the porn and just forgot about it and now he's lying. So, can a virus from a laptop accidently send pornos to an external hardrive then transfer them to another laptop. If so, please explain how so. Thanks.

I heard this song on the 11/25/08 episode of All My Children (can be found on youtube). It was a song played in ConFusion while Bianca and Reese were talking after Bianca went off on Amanda. I understood most of the lyrics and have searched everywhere but cannot find it and was wondering if any of you could help. It's a pop song by a female. It has an easy rhythm. The lyrics that I could make out are "Every single minute I'm standing here, just wanna make it clear that I want you by my side..." and "Come on baby boy, I don't got all night...wanna be your lady".

I have a boyfriend whom I love so very much. I've never wanted anyone but him and he satisfies my needs. But lately, I've been having a problem.

My college roommate and I are very cool with each other. I can tell that we may become close friends soon. She's really nice and down to earth. The only thing is that she feels strongly against homosexuality...so I never told her about my bisexual past. I've dated a few women and almost every one of my friends knows. We've had to keep it a secret from her though, because I don't know how she would act, even though I'm not into women anymore. I figured it was just my "need" to experiment with women when I got to college.

So just when my mind, body, and heart are set on my boyfriend, I had an shocking dream about my roommate a few days ago. I dreamed that she "exposed" herself to me and tempted me to do something with her. I was so confused when I awoke. How could I have a dream like that? The next day was pretty awkward because I didn't know how to act around her. Of course I didn't tell my boyfriend or her for obvious reasons. Problem is, my mind has been playing tricks on me because i'm finding myself thinking more fondly of her.

I give her way to many compliments, laugh and smile around her more than I do anyone, and sometimes I'll just stare at her and make mental notes of how cute the faces are that she makes and how I really like her smile. Sometimes, it makes me panic. I finally talked to a friend about it yesterday and she just said "stop thinking about it. it was just a dream." She was right. It was just a dream and I don't want my roommate. I only want my boyfriend. So where are these thoughts and feelings coming from and how can I get rid of them.

Last night, I told her that I'm considering moving into a different room next semester. She doesn't want to see me go and she asked why. Of course, I couldn't tell the truth. But I just don't want to feel that I could fall for her. I couldn't do that to my boyfriend or myself and ruin my friendship with her.

What could this all mean and what could I do? Should I move out?

I've occasionally had minor neck pain but nothing serious. Yet, I've noticed a lump in my neck. It's the size of a raisin and feels like a soft bone.It's like a piece of material or something right underneath my skin, right above my left clavicle. It is clearly visible and I can actually take my finger and move it around in my neck, but it always go back to the same place. Now, I've taken Anatomy courses, but I've never heard of any kind of bone or muscle like this. Is this normal? if not, what could it be?

First of all, I need serious advice on this, no joke, because I'm feeling pretty bad right now. The thing is I've only had three sexual partners in my life (I'm 20), and I have never had an orgasm. It's never happened even with foreplay or oral sex. My current boyfriend...to say the least has been frustrated with that fact lately. It takes a lot for him to ejaculate but it's happened a number of times, but I still haven't gotten there. I've come close...very close with him a few times, but I never actually feel anything. I get wet, very wet, but no orgasm. He's tried just about everything to make me orgasm and lately he's been so upset, he gets angry with himself and puts himself down. He feels that if he can't make me orgasm, then he can't please me. It makes him feel like less of a man, like he's not a good lover. I've told him plenty of times that I don't care about all that because he's been great to me and that sex doesn't mean anything to me. I really mean that. But somehow, he doesn't get that his love is all I need and that it's only frustrating the both of us that he's made somewhat of a game out of making me orgasm. We've tried ice, vibrator, massage oils, stimulation, different positions...everything. It's even frustrating me now because we end up having sex at least once a day because he's "in the mood", wants to make love to me, and especially because he wants to make me have an orgasm. He can't really keep his hands off of me. Everyday I'm with him, he wants sex and it often turns out bad. I don't get much out of it, and he oftens ends up upset...unless I get "worn out" or "hurt" in the process

What can I do? I'm afraid that one day, he's going to decide that he can't please me and that he'll just walk away from me and find another woman. Why can't I orgasm. I've heard that some women orgasm but don't feel it. Could that be it? Then again, he gets frustrated that I don't end up screaming his name and collapsing from a climax. I thought about just faking it, but I can't lie to him. And if I fake it once, I'm going to have to fake it again and again. And he'll feel bad if he should find out that I faked it. I don't know what to do. How can I change this? How can I orgasm? And how can I get him to see that this relationship is more than about sex to me? How can I get his mind off of sex?

I've slept with my boyfriend about six times now. It's almost the same thing every night, he starts of hold me from behind, and then a few minutes later, he'll turn over. During the night, we'll take turns holding each other, then i wake up in the morning to find him on the edge of the bed. The first two nights I slept with him, he actually hit me in his sleep. He actually smacked me with his hand. The second time he did it, I woke him and and asked him what was wrong. He said it'd felt like something had bitten his arm. His arm was actually drapped over my abdomen, so it must've been in his dreams. That morning, I asked him about it, and he didn't even remember waking up and saying that. Then the last time I slept with him, I awake in the middle of the night to find him with his head buried under two pillows. I moved to put my arm around him. He grab my wrist firmly and pushed my arm back! I thought he was upset with me, so I turned over. A minute later, I felt him turn over and he started mumbling (I've heard him mumble twice before in his sleep. He talks in his sleep). Then he started breathing pretty funny, as if he had to struggle to get enough oxygen into his lungs (that's happened twice that im aware of).

I've told him about all of this, but he can never remember any of it! He tells me he doesn't mean to hit me or push me away at night, and I'm sure he doesn't but I actually cried those nights! He told me that he's trying to work on his sleeping habits, and I can't blame him, but I'm scared to sleep with him now for one because we only get to see each like every few months and it hurts not being to hold him or be in his arms while we sleep and two because I'm afraid I'm gonna wake up one morning and have to explain a bruise or that he'll hurt me or himself. Plus the breathing really scares me because he's had one of his lungs collapse twice! Part of that lung is now attached to his rib cage. So that's really a serious thing.

What could this be? How can I help him? How will I ever be comfortable sleeping with him again?

I'm probably crazy for asking this, but this has never happened to me before. For the past two weeks, I've experienced mild nausea, dizziness. I've been lightheaded, and have had stomach problems (which don't need to be mentioned) but they include cramping and increased bowel movements. At least 3 a day. Then just yesterday, I was so angry and sad about an email my sister sent about something that went on at home, that I didn't even wanna call my boyfriend and talk to him. I didn't want to talk to anyone for that matter. Last night, I was furious about it, and then I cried. I even got sad because I couldn't talk to my boyfriend about what was wrong with me. I wrote him an email explaining about what an emotional wreck I am right now. Then today, I've experienced very light abdominal cramping. I've had crazy mood swings and abdominal cramping around this time prior to my cycle before, but nothing like this.

So can somebody tell me...does my boyfriend have the right to call me crazy right now, or could this just be part of pms?

I've heard that in my state of MS, I'd have to renew my state ID and indicate that I would like to be a donor. The case is that my boyfriend has a bad lung. His lung has collapsed twice within the past few months. Part of his left lung is missing and is attached to his rib cage. He is also at risk of having one of his lungs collapse again. It could be lethal. If something like that were to happen to him, I don't know what I'd do. I want to do something. So I wanted to know how possible it would be to give him one of my lungs. If I were to do so, would his health improve or would he still suffer the risk of having that new lung collapse? Would my lung even be a match for his? And how would I go about the process of having my lung transferred from my body to his? Any advice please.

I don't know much about how the military works, but some things that a friend told me about this guy are not making sense. First of all, he claimed he was enlisted at the age of 17...around his junior year of high school. He claimed he was sent to Iraq that summer and part of his senior school term. He claimed that after his graduation he was sent back overseas then resided at Fort Benning. He says he was in the National Guard but was a Green Beret. He said his rank was 2nd lieuntenant. He had some job jumping out of planes. This summer, he claimed that he was discharged for a bad knee, but that they are constantly harrassing to try to get him back in and almost forced him to go back overseas. At one point, he even claimed they'd switched him over to the Air Force, but that then he joined the Marines, but then got out.

So he says he was a 2nd lieutenant in the National Guard but claims he went to some college for only two years. He never said whether he has a degree or not, but I haven't seen it. Now, I'm not the smartest person in the world, but something about this isn't making sense.

I'm not officially in a relationship with this guy, but we are talking at the moment. I don't really like him romantically...not much, but he's everything that I want in my life. He's incredible. But he's in Virginia most times and I'm in Mississippi. He understands that there's another guy here in town that I recently stopped talking to romantically. The problem is the guy can't take no for an answer and insists on waiting for me and trying to get me to fall in love.

Last night, I made a HUGE mistake and kissed the guy. I even touched all over him. There's no telling what I would've done if we'd been alone. After he left my house, I called the guy I was talking to. I felt so guilty and sick to my stomach. He could tell something was wrong, but I couldn't bring myself to tell him. How could I be so stupid?! Should I tell him what happened, hurt him, and risk losing him or keep it to myself knowing he'll never find out, and just work on a relationship with him?

A few minutes ago, I had a bowel movement. It was a pretty normal one, no cramping, no pain or struggle, but then I noticed that there were red streaks and pellets along the stool. I thought maybe I'd had some spicy food or peppers within the past days, but I haven't. Besides, when I do eat spicy foods, I do get stomach issues and mild heartburn, but this has never happened before. I did eat some slices of tomatoes on a burger last night, but as said this has never happened before. What could this be?

looking to dedicate a song to this guy that I'm talking to. I can kind of tell that he's a little discouraged because I am talking to another guy, but I'm taking the time to make sure he's right for me and that I'm right for him before I just take that chance and I want to find the right words to assure him and let him know that I'm starting to have feelings for him. Any kind of song would be cool, but R&B or hip hop is a plus.

I have an exboyfriend from 2 years ago. I'll call him S. We were together on and off. He was the kind & pretty quiet type. I didn't really like that he was quiet at times so I let him go plenty of times for guys who either didn't know how to step up, or didn't mean me any good.

But S was a good man. He always put me first. He never did me any harm, and he even commited to me. But I would let him go because I got bored and cuz I was scared of how good he was to me. Or so I said. Only now, when I've had two people hurt me bad, I realize just how bad I hurt him and how he's the best I ever had. I apologized twice and led him on when I didn't mean it, and now when I've tried to apologize from the heart, knowing how bad I messed up, he doesn't want to hear it. I don't blame him. I used to get so upset when he'd get mad that I'd choose other people over him. I understand how he felt. What I did hurts. With all my heart, I'm so so sorry for it and I want to make it up to him. But how?

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i asked how to get over an exgirlfriend who is now my roommate in my college dorm. since then, i know i've finally gotten over her. so just when i think things will get better, they actually get worse. lately, it seems she's been darting from guy to guy. first she's so hooked on this one guy, then she sleeps around with two other guys and hooks up with an ex who's her "soulmate", but lately, she's been having different guys over. the part that aggravates me is that she has a different guy over EVERY night. I barely get privacy. Plus she acts soo rude 2 me when she has them over. She also feels the need to blurt out to them that im into girls. Total strangers!! Can I tell my own business?! and she had the nerve to call me weird in front of a guy, just because I was talking to him and mentioned my day. I walked in and she has this guy laying in her bed, and she said nothin 2 me. She hasn't said 2 words all week,pretty much ignored me. I wanna hit her!! She's irritating da hell out me!!!!

This is kinda crazy. i met this girl in college. she came on to me first. we got close. i had a lotta firsts with her. she was able to help me be free with my sexuality. but she and i are pretty stubborn and didn't like dealing with problems between us. just when i got my head on straight to really work at it, she gives up on me only after 1 week. to make things worse, i've fallen in love with her and after months, im still not over her...nowhere close. i get so jealous when she's on the phone with guys...she's even starting a relationship with someone else. we've discussed plenty of times about how we didn't work out...every conversation makes absolutely no sense. i don't get why if she loves me, she won't give me another chance. i just hate it that i can't get over her, and it doesn't at all help that we're roommates in our dorm! It's driving me crazy. i can't even focus on making a new relationship work because when im with someone else, i keep thinking about her! What can i do?