Nixk

Basically, I worried that there's something wrong with me. I've just started university and already have an overwhelming feeling of stress, angst and worthlessness, despite having made new friends who tell me otherwise. I'm always been a bit of a loner, relying on others to make friends who I'd then hang out with, which never did my confidence any good, and lead to me being bullied at points during my school life. Even now that I'm 18 and I've got tons more confident and made loads of my own friends, I can still feel alone even in a social circle or when I'm with a smaller group of people.

My mood also changes rapidly, and has being doing so for the past couple of years - at some points I'll be really happy, cheery and positive and then at others, especially when I'm tired, my mood will spiral into sadness and self-loathing up to the point where I hate myself and just want to cry. It's really bad in the sense that I convince myself I'll never get anywhere in life, and no one will ever love me because I'm too much to handle or I care too much about myself (things I've never even realized), but these things have changed overnight and disappeared. I also feel rather put-down at times by my friends who tell me I'm an idiot at times, or my lecturers, one of whom used the phrase "you'd be stupid to..." when talking about something I had done.

I'm not really sure who to turn to with such problems, I've already told parts to my friends at uni, but I don't want to drag them down; I don't want to tell my family because I fear they'll worry about me and I've signed up to the Student Support Scheme, but gone no further due to my mood changing in the daytime, and so I've seen no point.

So yeah, I don't know what's wrong with me (or if there is anything) and just really want to vent and find out where I can go from here to get help and what other people think...

I'm DJing my friend's 18th party in a few weeks time and need some help to gather a collection of modern rock/alternative/pop-punk songs, mainly "classics" from the late 90s until present day that people will recognize.

So far I have stuff like Mr. Brightside by The Killers and I Bet That You Look Good On The Dancefloor by The Arctic Monkeys - but I wondered if anyone could give me a few extra - just some popular alternative music to please a crowd.

Cheers in advance!