Bella

I realized, just now, that I don’t know who I am. I know nothing about the real me. I know I like reading, but beyond that I’m a nobody. I have zero identity. I realized that I just mirror other people’s identities. I even do this when reading. I mirror the characters emotions and mannerisms as my own to the point that if the character is crying then I’m crying to fit that role then be completely fine when the next character calls for happiness. I feel empty. I experience all of these emotions, but they’re not really mine. I know I shouldn’t take advice from strangers, but I cannot afford a therapist at the moment and I needed to get this off of my chest. Why do I feel I have no identity? Do any of you ever feel this way? What should I try to fix this problem?

Thank you for listening.

I'm starting to notice that my systolic blood pressure is beginning to be in hypertension a lot while my diastolic blood pressure is beginning to be in hypotension a lot. I just got a reading tonight of 155/45 and it’s scary because what the heck happens when the diastolic gets any lower? Also my heart rate is almost always over 100 bpm, I have chest squeezing, lightheadedness, fatigue, and shortness of breath. I'm only 21 and I have family history of heart disease. I went to a GP got some tests done, echo and holter monitoring, but they called me up to say it was normal. I don't understand how everything is coming back normal, but I'm over here having symptoms everyday and I cannot even workout because just walking one day lowered my blood pressure to hypotension and I had really bad chest pains. But according to all the tests I'm fine. One day I was laying on the couch, almost unconscious because I'm so tired and then my chest started hurting. I had a really fast and irregular heart beat. My grandma was napping so I didn’t call for her, but I thought I was going to die that day. Hell, today I thought it was happening. I had major chest pains and I'm still having them as I type this. With all these test results coming back normal I feel like my GP thinks I'm lying or have some medical seeking attention illness and I don't. It's very frustrating.

I am 21 years old and I was wondering if it is normal for a person's blood pressure to go down during exercise. For example; before my hour long walk 156/74 to 98/45 after my walk. I have middle/left side chest pain when I walk and shortness of breath. My heart rate was 110 before the walk and 146 after the walk. I normally have a high heart rate over a 100 bpm and I can almost always feel my heartbeat irregularly. I had an echocardiogram and a holter monitor a week ago and my GP said it was normal, but yet I'm having symptoms everyday and feel like something is off.

Hey everyone, I have a process speech coming up for my speech class and I am kind of struggling with the central idea of my nutella pumpkin bites. 

This is my central idea: These nutella pumpkin bites are the prefect treat for any sweet tooth because they require no baking, only take five minutes to make, and are gluten free.

Do you guys think this is a central idea or do I need to work on it?

Hi, so I’m a 21 year old female and I think I have something wrong with my heart.

I’ve been having chest pains, squeezing and sharp, I have also noticed that I get out of breath more often now, I have dizzying spells, I can feel my heart beat irregularly fast, and do get a sharp pain every once and awhile in my left elbow.

Now you’re probably laughing at me or rolling your eyes saying, “Why are you on Yahoo Answers? Go to the doctor!”, but hear me out. I don’t have a car and I live with family. I tried telling my grandmother of my concerns one day at Publix after I tested my blood pressure with one of those near the pharmacy. My blood pressure was 116/89 and my heart rate was 109. My grandma thought I was stressed, but I was the farthest thing from stressed that day. 

I feel like if I told my family that I think something is wrong with my heart that they won’t believe me especially since my brother had a dehydration incident that landed him in the ER one day a couple weeks ago.

I have a history of following in my little brother’s footsteps. My brother got glasses at 5...I got them at 7 by staring at the sun. My brother was diagnosed with autism...I got diagnosed with bipolar four years later. My brother goes to the hospital for dehydration everyone in the family thinks it’s a heart disease that runs in my family...now two weeks later I say something is wrong with my heart and they will probably call bs, but I have noticed the fast/irregular heartbeat a couple years ago.

Out of these names make a boy/boy, girl/girl, and boy/girl twin pair for me please so I get an idea of what everyone thinks sounds good.

Boy:

Nikolaj Orion (Kol/Niko)

Henrik Silas (Henry/Rik)

Benjen Arthur (Benji/Ben)

Roland Jasper (Rowe/Ollie)

Severin Elijah (Sev)

Giuseppe Oliver (Jesse)

Girl:

Hermione Eileen (Mia)

Cordelia Renée (Delia)

Lilliana Luelle (Lilly)

Ellowyn Sofia (Elle/Ella)

Penelope Johanna (Penny/Pia)

Arianell Elena (Arie/Aria)

Thank you so much for your help.

I have always had issues with not being happy ever since I was a little kid about six is when I realized that life sucks and ever since it has been a down hill slope from there. I am at my wits end, because I'm 20 years-old with no sense of direction at the moment and as hard I try putting applications for jobs I just cannot find one or get one. I was in community college, but I had to quit because I cannot afford it. I have not told any of my family that I dropped out, because my grandparents would be disappointed and my mother would just yell at me but at least she can still collect my child support check from my father so that's a plus for her. I feel like the walls are slowly closing in on me and I don't know what to do anymore. I am done, but I don't think I would ever kill myself because no matter what has happened to me in my past I still imagine this future that I want I just don't know how to get there. Also I would be spitting in the face to my grandparents whom I believe love me or at least are really great pretenders. I have no friends and I cannot talk to my family so I come to the strangers of the internet to help with I don't know reassurance (?) or advice. It is not like I have not been trying to find a path in life. I finished middle school with a dream and a plan, but ever since finishing high school the plan has fallen to ruins, the dream is now just a distant memory. I have went from FBI agent with a law degree future to a nobody in less than 2 years.

I am a twenty-year-old second-year college student at the moment, but I am feeling like college isn’t the right road for me. I try to pass my classes, but it doesn’t work out and now I have lost all of my scholarships. Since the end of my first year, I have become more depressed than I have in the past. I started college knowing what I wanted to do, but at this point I have changed my mind five times and coming from a family with no money I couldn’t afford to have my scholarships fail. But now they are gone and I don’t know what to do. I have been thinking of dropping everything I have in SC and moving up north, but as I have seen it is pretty hard to find a job online or a place to live. I do have some money saved up, but not enough to visit then come back to my hometown then go back. I don’t have a car at the moment either so I would need to live in a city so I can walk or take a bus, but I am seeing that cities are not the place for young women with zero city experience. I just feel like dropping out of college is the right thing to do, because I already have given up everything that use to be fun to me and I sit around wishing to be a productive citizen with a job, living on my own, and doing things that others do. I feel like I’m wasting my life with college. So what I’m asking for is some advice on how to find a job, a place to live, what it is like to move out of state, should I drop out at all, and maybe some city living advice...Thank you for your patience and time.

I’m just curious as to what you guys named your children or would name your children. Some names I like are...

Boys:

Cassian Thayer: Nickname - Ian

Henrik Severus: Nickname - Henry/Rik

Niklaus Everan: Nickname - Nik

Copelan Remus: Nickname - Coop

Elijah Orion: Nickname - Eli

Girls:

Hermione Luna: Nickname - Mia

Kaileena Irene: Nickname - Kai

Lilliana Ellesmere: Nickname - Lilly

Emerence Rose: Nickname - Emery

Katerina Ariella: Nickname - Rina

Thank you for your time. Have a great day!

(Rank them I guess by a boy column and a girl column from best to worst would be best)

(Boy) Eerian (Ear-Ian) Thayer

- Nickname: Ian

(Girl) Lilliana (Lily-ah-nah) Ellesmere (Ellis-mere)

- Nickname: Lilly

(Boy) Elijah Orion (Or-ee-on)

- Nickname: Eli

(Girl) Emerence (Em-er-ance) Rose

- Nickname: Emery

(Boy) Henrik (Hen-ric) Severus (Sev-er-us)

- Nickname: Rik

(Girl) Katerina (Kat-ah-ree-nah) Arabella (Air-ah-bella)

- Nickname: Rina

(Boy) Niklaus (Nee-kl-ow-us) Everan (Ever-in)

- Nicknames: Nik or Klaus

(Girl) Daenerys (da-nair-us) Maeve (May-v)

- Nickname: Dae (Day)

(Girl) Nikolina (Nick-o-lee-nah) Irene

- Nickname: Nina

(Boy) Romulus (Rom-u-lus) Abraxus (A-brac-sus)

- Nickname: Rome or Romy (Romeo without o) (Rome-ee)

I was eating some fish that my mom brought home from work not knowing it had bones in it I took a bite. I ended up getting a tiny bone stuck in my throat for a second so I coughed a couple times and thought it went down. But now every time I breathe it feels like my breath catches in my throat for a second before going normal again. It’s hard to explain but it feels like hiccups, but only in my throat when I breathe. It’s not stopping me from breathing, but it is scary that it just stops in my throat for a second. Should I go to the hospital or will it be fine.

So my daughter is 16 and for a long time she has always been different but as time goes on I have seen things that would say that mental illness may play a factor in that behavior. Well when she was younger she peed the bed until she was 11 and she could never make or keep friends. When she was 9 she stabbed a girl for making fun of her with a pencil. She has always been on the heavy side and now I see that she only eats one or two small meals a day with one drink. The other day she pulled out her bow and arrow and threatened her brother to tell the truth to her. She doesn't have very many emotions that she feels and when she says she loves me she says it with no emotion like she doesn't mean it. She pisses the cats off so they will scratch her and yesterday her teacher tried to make a fool out of her in front of the class and she yelled at her and when I asked what happened she told me that after the cituation happened that she wanted to hurt herself or runaway. Lately she has came up with a plan to runaway with this very complex plan. She has no humor in her and she also does this stare off into nothingness when I ask what she is staring at she says sorry I zoned out what. I'm worried and I don't know what to do and I do feel she could hurt someone or herself. Please help what do you think I should do or what do you think it is.

So on Friday I was in class and my first period watched a video on mental health. I noticed how I act like that sometimes. So today I went to school with a normal happy attitude but by third period which is art I couldn't focus so I took a piece of paper and scribbled super fast lines on it to get the need to move feeling out. Well sometime during fourth period my mood changed for the worst I was emotionless I felt nothing like I wasn't really there. By the end of fifth period I was having bad hurtful thoughts like wanting to hurt people around me while still being emotionless. Some of my friends asked what was wrong with me too so it caught there attention. If you have any idea what this could be please help I did a google search but that didn't help. This has going on since I was 7 or 8 when I stab a girl in the leg with a pencil.

So today I was in class and my first period watched a video on mental health. I noticed how I act like that sometimes. So today I went to school with a normal happy attitude but by third period which is art I couldn't focus so I took a piece of paper and scribbled super fast lines on it to get the need to move feeling out. Well sometime during fourth period my mood changed for the worst I was emotionless I felt nothing like I wasn't really there. By the end of fifth period I was having bad hurtful thoughts like wanting to hurt people around me while still being emotionless. Some of my friends asked what was wrong with me too so it caught there attention. If you have any idea what this could be please help I did a google search but that didn't help.

Okay hi I'm 15 and I need help bad but I'm scarred to go to my mom. I have been up and down with my mood like yesterday I was sad to be get rid of my cats but then I was happy and thought they are getting knew homes but now that they are gone I feel like my heart is broken in two and can never be pieced back together. But this is not the first time this on a day to day bases. Like two days ago I wrote a note to my mom saying that if she didn't call my Nanny so I could live with her that I would slit my throat so I went to the kitchen and was thinking of grabbing a knife and it took all my strength to not. My brother just found out that he has autism and I just like three months ago was taking away from my nanny by my mom and ever since then I have been on a down hill slope. But this slope has happen a lot of times before it started when I was 6 or 7 and it started minor with me peeing the bed and in public then when I was 8 or 9 I stabbed a girl with a pencil and when I was 11 - 12 I started cutting then I started homeschooling and I was fine but now I'm happy when I don't want to be and I think of death I have even created a book with my wish real life. I need help now and the clock is ticking because I'm starting regular high school in the fall and I can't go like this not like an insane person. I just need to know what I may have so I like a list of different illnesses so I can look them up and take them to her for some type of proof. Thank you for helping.

Okay hi I'm 15 and I need help bad but I'm scarred to go to my mom. I have been up and down with my mood like yesterday I was sad to be get rid of my cats but then I was happy and thought they are getting knew homes but now that they are gone I feel like my heart is broken in two and can never be pieced back together. But this is not the first time this on a day to day bases. Like two days ago I wrote a note to my mom saying that if she didn't call my Nanny so I could live with her that I would slit my throat so I went to the kitchen and was thinking of grabbing a knife and it took all my strength to not. My brother just found out that he has autism and I just like three months ago was taking away from my nanny by my mom and ever since then I have been on a down hill slope. But this slope has happen a lot of times before it started when I was 6 or 7 and it started minor with me peeing the bed and in public then when I was 8 or 9 I stabbed a girl with a pencil and when I was 11 - 12 I started cutting then I started homeschooling and I was fine but now I'm happy when I don't want to be and I think of death I have even created a book with my wish real life. I need help now and the clock is ticking because I'm starting regular high school in the fall and I can't go like this not like an insane person. I just need to know what I may have so I like a list of different illnesses so I can look them up and take them to her for some type of proof. Thank you for helping.

Okay hi I'm 15 and I need help bad but I'm scarred to go to my mom. I have been up and down with my mood like yesterday I was sad to be get rid of my cats but then I was happy and thought they are getting knew homes but now that they are gone I feel like my heart is broken in two and can never be pieced back together. But this is not the first time this on a day to day bases. Like two days ago I wrote a note to my mom saying that if she didn't call my Nanny so I could live with her that I would slit my throat so I went to the kitchen and was thinking of grabbing a knife and it took all my strength to not. My brother just found out that he has autism and I just like three months ago was taking away from my nanny by my mom and ever since then I have been on a down hill slope. But this slope has happen a lot of times before it started when I was 6 or 7 and it started minor with me peeing the bed and in public then when I was 8 or 9 I stabbed a girl with a pencil and when I was 11 - 12 I started cutting then I started homeschooling and I was fine but now I'm happy when I don't want to be and I think of death I have even created a book with my wish real life. I need help now and the clock is ticking because I'm starting regular high school in the fall and I can't go like this not like an insane person. I just need to know what I may have so I like a list of different illnesses so I can look them up and take them to her for some type of proof. Thank you for helping.

Okay hi I'm 15 and I need help bad but I'm scarred to go to my mom. I have been up and down with my mood like today I was sad to be get rid of my cats but then I was happy and thought they are getting knew homes but now that they are gone I feel like my heart is broken in two and can never be pieced back together. But this is not the first time this on a day to day bases. Like two days ago I wrote a note to my mom saying that if she didn't call my Nanny so I could live with her that I would slit my throat so I went to the kitchen and was thinking of grabbing a knife and it took all my strength to not. My brother just found out that he has autism and I just like three months ago was taking away from my nanny by my mom and ever since then I have been on a down hill slope. But this slope has happen a lot of times before it started when I was 6 or 7 and it started minor with me peeing the bed and in public then when I was 8 or 9 I stabbed a girl with a pencil and when I was 11 - 12 I started cutting then I started homeschooling and I was fine but now I'm happy when I don't want to be and I think of death I have even created a book with my wish real life. I need help now and the clock is ticking because I'm starting regular high in the fall and I can't go like this not like an insane person.