Natasha

Some context; every time I have a bad feeling it comes true and something bad happens. Every. Single. Time. I've never been able to figure out what will happen until now

A few months ago, I had a horrible, extremely detailed dream that seemed to real to not be true. It's been on my mind ever since and I've only just figured out what the dream meant. The dream showed me that there is going to be a horrible disease that will kill a lot of the world and turn most of the rest into horrible, horrible people. It makes people it hasn't killed take pleasure in murdering and torturing people. It turns people into literal monsters on the inside, no matter how they were before.

I've seem how it's transmitted and I think I've seen how it starts. I have no idea what to do; I feel like if I tell anyone, I'll be locked up in the loony bin but I know if anything happens it'll be on my shoulders that I at least didn't warn anyone. What I saw was horrible and if I tell someone, maybe it'll help prevent it? Or maybe it won't come true and I'll be thrown in the loony bin for the rest of my life.

What should I do? I can't let people get hurt because of being afraid but I still have my doubts about it. I really really don't want it to be true, but it feels to right to be true

Last week I found out that my friends girlfriend may have hurt her last girlfriend's kid when they were together a lot, and that's was why they broke up/she kicked her out. I was told by the my friends that they just broke up but it makes a lot more sense that she was kicked out for what she he did to that kid. Now my friend and her girlfriend live in a flat in the same supported living accommodation that I live in (came out of foster care and was put here) and I don't feel like I can live so close to someone who has done that to an innocent child, especially with my past. As a child and teenager I was very physically abused my my mother until I made social services put me in foster care.

My dilemma is; I am good friends with the girl, but not really friends with her girlfriend. If I tell an official here the girlfriend will be kicked out and barred from entering here, where she will have no where else to go. They only have a month before they move out, and I know if I say something my friends mental health could deteriorate very badly and it would be hell for her to live here. On the other side, there are people under 18 living here and I am scared that she could hurt them or even someone else, I have a young bearded dragon here that I have to protect never mind myself. I don't feel safe knowing there's someone who most likely abused an innocent kid living so close to me and I don't know if I could live with her hurting someone here on my conscience. What should I do?

I'm trying to find something, anything to keep me here

When I was 16, I was out walking in the woods with my two sisters, one of my sisters foster dad, and another foster kid (we were all in foster care at this time). My sisters wanted a picture on top of a big *** tree trunk that was slanted, so they climbed on top of it. I was tying and failing to climb it, so the foster dad (letsuch call him **** head) help me. He kind of lifted me, he put his hand right in between my legs (touching my prirate parts) and lifted me like that. I felt very uncomfortable, he went red slightly and the other foster kid was like "oooooh". I blocked it out of my memory because a little of things have happened since

A bit of background- I was sexually, physically and emotionally abused when I was younger, and he knew this because it was in the case history. When I met him, I got a lot of creep vibest from him, but I put it down to not trusting men because of my experiences. Myou sister left a few months later because he started to get weirdly close to her, he kept trying to talk about porn with her and her got slightly touchy feely when drunk. His wife was extremely controlling and tried to control everything my sister did, so thank god we were able to get her away from them. (They are both 50's)

I don't know if what he did to me counts as sexual assult, but I know I would feel extreme guilt if he touched someone else like that. So, do you think it was?

As I said in the title, I am going to commit suicide. The argument of "It will get better" isn't going to work here because I know it won't, it can't. I am just a burden to everyone around me. I know that when I'm gone, although they will be upset for a while, they will get over it and move on. All I do in life is cause others pain, I never meant to but I always somehow do. I am still in High school (I'm 18) and I know that im young but if I do it now then other people don't have to suffer with having me there. Today I had an argument with my sisters, and now I know that I am causing problems for them I need to stop that. People do know about my anxiety/depression, and it would be kinder to them to not have to deal with me anymore. I no longer have anything to live for. There is no use in me being alive, and if there was another way for me to just dissappear so the people I love can stop being burdened by me then I would go for it, but this is the only way. My parents don't care (if don't live with them, I live on my own because of a lot of issues with them such as abuse) and my siblings are better off without me. I don't have many friends, and the ones I don't have will easily forget me. My school will milk my death and then they will forget about me. I'm wondering how I can put this all down on my suicide note that I need to leave? I need them to know that it's not their fault, that I am doing this because I lover them and they are much better off without me

OIn April, my dad told my sister that he found a lump down there and he was getting it checked out by the doctor. He got back to her, saying that he did have Prostate cancer; it was caught early so there was a good survival rate. Im not close with him (i will explain further down) so he didnt speak to me about it, but he told me sister that he was on Cemo tablets for it. Two days ago i saw him at the bus station, where he told my sister and i that hewas officially in remission. Is it possible to be in remission not even three months after eing diagnosed with Prostate cancer

Here is some history behind him. He was a rubbish father. To be honest i havent had a proper meaningful conversation with him probably since i was around 7/8. I actually didnt see him for around 10 years when i was 7/8 because he abandond us, so i have no feeling towards this man other than resentment. He is a compulsive lier, he has told my older sister that he cheats te benefits system a hell of a lot of money by acting like he has a lot wrong with him (such as his back is so sore he cant work and barely get out if bed while he s actually just lazy and is perfectly able to walk). He also lies about a hell of a lot of other stuff but i would be here all day.

Its disgusting to lie about cancer, do you think that he could be lying? I thought that prostate cancer had to be removed surgically, not just by tablets and would go away after less than three months.