Ali

My life sucks in so many levels ,and for some reason I don't feel like opening up to anyone ,all I do is posting some statues of thoughts running inside my head and Also in riddles ,making it harder for ppl to trace me ...

All I know is what's keeping me alive is religion only nothing else ..........,.

now all I do is keep pretending to live my life as if nothing wrong with me .....

all I feel is depression ,emptiness hopelessness ,lost ,paranoia ,and more

I'm so bottled that I can't express my feelings in a silly 2 minutes song :/

What's worst is I'm 2 numb 2 feel anything writing this knowing that I can't repair how I feel

Just a random Q

i recently jail broke my iPod 4g and after opening cydia all of the original apps disappeared ?? no settings no camera no nothing all ihave now is the apps that i downloaded from app store , how can i retrieve my pod without losing the jailbreak ,i tried everything ,please help ??