ZIGGLADUS

Hey, I've been wearing glasses since elementary school, I am 18 years old now, and lately I've just gotten sick of glasses, I'm currently going about to getting contact lenses for the first time, but my ultimate goal is to get LASIK. My question is, I recently got my glasses prescription changed (January), and the eye doctor said I have about 1 more prescription change to go through until my eyes become fully stable.. Would this mean I'd have to wait about 1-2 years after my next prescription to consider LASIK? I'm thinking that I'll have to get my new glasses prescription sometime next year or toward the end of next year.. Then wait a year or two for LASIK, so the best idea would be to hold off LASIK until I am 21-22?

COD4 inspired me to join the Marines and I already signed a contract.

But in recent weeks I stopped playing cod and my interest in the marines stopped as a result.

WTF do I do?

Ah yes, I am Ziggladus, I've been in a casual type relationship with a Woman I've known since high school (22 of age currently), casual sex, smoke a little pot together, hang out, more sex, and then we part ways until next time, I figured we both were winning because I got sex, and she being a shy girl from a real strict Mexican family (did not go out too much), spent some time having a little fun and some sexual satisfaction with me, she always insisted that she "Doesn't want a SERIOUS relationship", which was fine by me, I am a man who likes to travel, explore, and go on epic adventures frequently (Word to Indiana Jones), haha, so a serious relationship isn't something that was on my agenda.

I am a well off man financially (Mentally is another case), and I live to conquer the fine things of life, and in our time spent together, I took her to a couple different countries because her being stuck at home looking at the world through her window, I decided it'd only be right to be a gentleman and take her on some trips, basically spent 5 months last year going on little, and big, adventures that I live for, she enjoyed it, I enjoyed it. We come back and she goes back to living her life with her parents, going to school and working part-time (Shes not a real financially prosperous Woman, but a good-hearted and kind Woman nonetheless, bless her heart), and all of a sudden she's kind of became VERY clingy and is always talking about "our" future, have I unknowingly eased into a serious relationship with her? I respect her, and admire her in other ways beside sexual ones, in our little casual relationship, I've been honest to her, always helped and looked out for her when I felt that she needed help, and am loyal to her (I am loyal to anyone who I feel deserves it), but that's just how I am as a Man, I wasn't intentionally being like this to her to lure her in or anything, I honestly believed for these few years that we were just casual sex partners.

NOW, I am planning to go to Haiti to offer my little helping hand, my long-time friend passed away during the quake, never got a chance to say good-bye (Don't know where his body ended up), and have decided to go there to at least work off my sadness, my helping hand will be a minuscule effort, but an effort nonetheless.

I notified her ahead of time to be fair to her, and since then she has kept on insisting on coming with me, being with me, etc., this is not something I honestly anticipated, my experience with Women has been only a few good women (quality not quantity), but in the end I always cut it off with them because I never wanted to pursue a serious relationship, felt like it'd hinder my own life ambition, goals, dreams, and adventures. Also, looking at today's condition of serious relationships, marriages, just keeps me away from them, too many games and drama, so I feel as if SHE want's to pursue something serious, while I just did what I do, she always says things like she loves me, admires me, compliments me a lot, I've overheard her friends complimenting me saying "She found one of the few good ones"..

I don't know what to make of this situation, at one hand, my natural self says "Boy, it's time to cut it off and keep it moving", but on the other hand, I feel as if her being with me under the guise of a casual sex relationship has transformed itself into something much more serious without me even realizing it, and now she wants to pursue it and assumes that I'm all for it.. WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Should I sit down with her and tell her I'm not the one for her?? Should I just be cold-hearted and abruptly end all contact with her and move on? (This would be quite a saddening option though), I am 22 years old and have A LOT of life ahead of me, I've never pictured myself being involved in something serious, I feel as if it'd slow down and kill off the life I currently live, and looking at the divorce rate in America, I feel as if i'd be the GOOD MAN I've always wanted to be for a Woman, though she is a good Woman, I have the impression that marriage/serious relationships completely change this, I don't want to be the 100% man for her when I feel as it'd end in a divorce or a break-up anyways.. I don't know, so many decisions, so many games and bullshyt you serious couples play with eachother, hurt each other so much, I feel as if marriage/serious relationship is NOT the route for a Man like me, that Men like me are supposed to live our lives and die alone in peace, but she just keeps trying and trying and trying to take me..